it's 2AM. time for bed... no matter what d.a. or cabarella say. my day:

10 AM - wake up, get ready for church
11 AM - church
Noon:30 - prepare lunch
2 PM - eat lunch
2:40 - run out of door, going to Roc's house
10 till 3 - arrive at theater, watch Land of the Dead
5:00 PM - to Roc's house for some Lord of the Rings multiplayer action
???? PM - eat dinner at Weinerschnitzel (good eats)
??:30 PM - more multiplayer action
8:?? PM - a little walk with Roc and Trin, and Sydney
9:30 PM - head 40 miles outside of town in opposite direction
10:00 PM - leave house, go 32 miles outside of town XP
late:30 - arrive at house in middle of nowhere, shoot fireworks
midnight:30 - head home
little after 1 AM - arrive at home, get ready for shower
1:20 AM - help unknown friend jump-start car
1:30 AM - take shower
1:45 AM - get hawaiian punch, brownie, and say goodnight
2:00 AM - BLOG!!


was expecting very little of this day, but was QUITE adverturous. Land of the Dead wasn't all that great, not recommended, but is fun to watch with friends!! X) multiplayer games are cool, even cooler when EVERYone can join in. X( weinerschnitzel is the best!! (largest hot dog chain in the world!! great chilli dogs!! owned by tastee freeze. be sure to take pepcid before eating!!) X) walks in late evening are nice, and great with company. sydney is kawaii (cute), but only kanine. long drives, at night, alone, in the middle of nothingness, with large stack of cds, is the best!! fireworks are fun, but better with company!! even better with company that you know!! long drives are fun!! X) showers after a long day are so very very nice. blogging about everything is great, having someone read it and comment... priceless!! X)

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nicole: uh. sorry for not getting back to your replies, but hope this blog answers at least one of them!! stay tuned for more blogging action and witting replies!

d.a.: if you're here, thanks. hope you are doing better today.

EVERYONE: thanks for coming. hope you enjoyed this blog as much as i did writing it. i have more stuff to post for tomorrow. i will also plan to change the music, add lyrics, and .... PICTURES!! yay!!


i'm going to a parade in the morning, so i really really need to get to bed. thanks, all. goodnight. sleep well.

-jafo-

the pieces of my life are but shards of crystal, and a large man in sihoulette stands before me, and crushes each piece with his bare hands. one by one, he takes my life away.

recently, every portion of my life has been looked up, and taken away from me. *pause* i had this all written out. several days ago, after watching an anime, i broke down and released all thoughts onto paper. it was an unhappy message that was created. but, it was the truth of my current state. i am an honest man, and i do not like to decieve or hide from people. recently, my life has been crumbling away in many places. i feel so helpless. there is nothing i can do about it. i want to make it stop, i want it to continue how it was, even if it wasn't all that pleasant in the first place. but there is nothing i can do to stop it. i do not have that power. even if i had, i fear the consequences of interviening at a time like this. i am even more afraid, that if i could stop things from changing, if i could keep it from going away, the consequences, the results, would only be painful to everyone around me. if i try to keep a friend from leaving, .... .... ... would it be alright?? if it is time for us each to part, but i kept that from happening, wouldn't that just hurt even more?? i do not want to lose my friend, i do not want to lose any more part of me, but at what cost?? would the pain of what i could do, be even worse that just letting go, and keeping hold of just my memories?? i don't know. i don't want to let go. i don't want to feel that pain again. i know how it feels, and i don't want to feel that way again. i do not want to lose another friend again. .... . . . now you know why, each and every one of you.... it takes much more than a simple conversation, but if you can, i will go to the ends of the earth for you. i would do anything. but, if you had to go, what would i do?? would i be able to stand it?? i suppose i will have to. there will be pain, and yes i will live on, but .... i hope that you will be happy whereever you go.

this is the better summarization of what i wrote several days ago. frankly, what i wrote then was crap. i didn't even reread any of it. even what i wrote at the beginning of now was different. and after that.... is all impromtu. cause, well, that's just how i write. i write from here, i write from now. i write how i am and how i think at this moment. if i do not, then it is only from memory, and has lost too much meaning.

i know most of you are no longer here. which is fine. is probably better that way. but if you ever manage to make it back and read this. this is for you. this is for all of you, everyone who i have ever called "my friend".

goodnight. sleep well.
-jafo-

my new set of rings. ordered them from ebay just yesterday. they will be sized to fit and are my favorite designs of the majority of the list. i still wish i could get my current ring in the right size. oh well. these are pretty cool right?? also, these are from some company that promises 30 day satisfaction, and 2 year free resizing .... which i don't think is very good for titanium. also, the both of these combined are less than the current one was. didn't realize how cheap titanium was!! oh, and the new ones come with a certificate showing it to be grade 5, whatever that means, but it's close to, or better than "aerospace grade", whatever that means. oh well. i'm just happy. wish they get here soon!!

i'm so tired. things have been happening all around lately. i actually wrote out a really long post the other day, but decided against posting it just yet. i'll put it up sometime when i feel like it.

remember to have fun. it is the essence of life.