just got back from picking up some anime that i ordered. it's a little cloudy right now. i think we're getting some rain tonight. i'm a little tired right now. i didn't do anything on my project today but i have the past few days. i think i made great progress. now i just need to finish up the scene and move on to the next one. the opening scene is of course the longest and most difficult. it's an extended run cycle with a "stop and look" sequence at the end. i had to nearly completely remodel the run cycle. right now i'm redoing the camera angles. then i'll have to finesse or completely redo the "stop and look" sequence. since it's all done in one shot, and the beginning is a run cycle i had to add a duplicate at the end to do the non-looped animation. -__-;

before i could get started on any of this, i had to remodel the "city". i created the "city" several years ago when i was first learning how to do it... it was so massively complicated and crappy. unbelievable. i had to go back through and basically recreate everything from scratch. so now, it looks somewhat similar but a hell of a lot better and MUCH simpler. the main reason for doing that was because, the more complex an object is (especially several really complex things) then the longer it takes to render. (rendering is the process of taking 3D objects/animation and making a video file or still images. everything must be rendered to be seen without looking through the program.)

i'm really tired and shouldn't be writing this. it's so weird why i'm tired right now. i don't know why. i haven't done much of anything today. haven't done much of anything all week. so because of that.. this is all i have to say for today.

night. - .jafo.

yay!! i feel much better now. thanks mostly to all of you and your support, helping me to get through my "slump". your comments and encouragement meant a lot. thanks.

k. well. it's 1:04 in the morning and i've learned never to blog this late at night, so stay tuned for an upcoming blog. maybe tomorrow, maybe the day after.

thanks again for all your help and support. goodnight.

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I'M BACK!! X)

went out of town today to go to my youngest nephew's birthday party. i believe he is now 2. i dun know. anyways, he can walk, sort of talk, and loves to use the big vacuum cleaner!! i'm very serious. we were also planning to meet my () brother, but luckily he had plans and we couldn't meet up. so we went to cracker barrel on the way out of town, cause there's not one here. but that doesn't bother me at all cause i don't like that place!! came back home and finally started working on my brothers computer. we finally have the first hard drive reformatted, installed and secondary drive files burnt. now we are in the process of reformatting the second hard drive cause my dad wants "his" hard drive back. is fine with my brother cause he keeps the 200Gb while my dad is only asking back the 30Gb. .... and i'm still content with my measly 120Gb. X)

there's very little other news. i've done very little more work on my project but i'm happy with the work that i've done. i just wish i had more time and could be more motivated. "life is busy". i've been off since monday and don't have to be back till monday, but i think i work for about 7 days in a row next. 0.0 AAAGH!! and... i know for sure about 3 of them will be long days. i don't want to go back!!

very little else has happened. i've been bored and lonely all week, when my free weekend rolled around i was "last minute" obligated to throw it all away for something i have no interest in (i did NOT have fun), instead of spending time with my friend like i had hoped for the past 2 weeks!!! X( GRRRR~!!

well, is fine enough i guess. seems like everyone is busy with this and that. the very end of the year, last year, most all were of course busy through the beginning of year. the past month or so everyone's been busy again. school, friends, obligations, parties, errands, etc etc. i wish everyone wasn't so busy anymore. i'm getting lonely. strangely enough i think the least busy person around here (besides me), is mustangcowgirl. but even she has other obligations.

here's a tidbit for you. from the time things got back to normal near the beginning of the year Roc and Trin were getting ready and moving into their new house. D.A. was madly concentrating on the relationship levels of many peoples (one excessively) X). K-Chan was very sweet and gave me wonderful conversation till time for bed. ... that lasted for about a month until my mother came down with illness. i was overly burdened with waiting on her and taking care of other things. this was also the exact time that dad started back on his graduate classes. (bummer!!) very shortly after i became sick myself. i was physically drained and just plain ill for about a month. i was very sparce in getting online. as the illness wore off i began to seek solice on the web yet again. to my surprise, Trin had very little to be seen due to the moving. D.A. was still tied with relationship issues or trying to over come them. K-Chan was (and is) busy with school, job searching and etc. - it's only been a couple weeks since then (since i came back online) but everyone is still busy. "say-la-v". - everyone!!! please get done with whatever your doing and come talk to me!! (hmm. i'm not selfish. i swear!!) X)

with that said... i haven't been to Glens or Trin's site for over a month. probably over 2 months. -__- i'm such a bad person. oh that reminds me... the main reason i wrote the above paragraph is because (something i just left out by accident) when i got back online i was feeling down, wrote a not-so-great blog, felt horrible about it, then began to have massive paranoid thoughts (again), thinking that everyone left me because of the things i said.... that i offended all of you. i suppose this could still be true but i'd like to believe that it's all in my head and y'all are just very busy. well, truthfully my paranoyia goes beyond that and i still feel that way. -__- did i really make y'all upset with me?? if i did, please let me know so that i can appoligize correctly.

that's about all i have to say. thanks and goodnight.
sleep well.

-.jafo.-

k. so i was gonna write a blog a few days ago... but i got really upset so i decided not to. good thinking eh?? also.. recently (too poor of a memory to remember when exactly) d.a. told me that my unhappy mood was of course all in my mind. but she told me that in order to get over it, i just need to be happy again. .... -__-; i knew that. (after she told me). so, according to d.a.'s plan, i'm going to try to make this a happy blog!! too bad i'm not usually a very happy person anyways!! *rolls up sleeves* HOSH!!

alright. get this out of the way. i've been messing with skins for my computer for the past week now. here are my discoveries. the links to it all are below. a full discription of everything is before that.

my favorite windows xp os skinning program is Window Blinds (created by Stardock). my favorite Window Blinds skin is GraphiteD (created by Lightstar) (found at wincustomize). i then used BootSkin (created by Stardock), with the Biophyd skin (created by farid nafar) (found at wincustomize). i went through a hack tutorial to replace my login screen. (tutorial by sarah lane (somehow related to "the screen savers" tv program)). it took me a while and i was having problems with it. if you use it, be sure to read everything, and read it carefully. REMEMBER TO BACKUP!! by the end of the tutorial you will have rebooted twice!! it's really not that hard. give it a try!! another way to implement a new logon screen is to use StyleXP or Logon Studio (created by Stardock). my current logon screen is Asuka Logon 2 (created by Zachquiel) (found at themexp). additionally, after all that, i found a cool little program called keyboard launchpad, which allows you to assign commands, links, etc to hotkeys. the free version will only allow up to 5 hotkeys. but it's a sweet little program and very helpful to me since i do as much as i can without touching the mouse!!

for skinning programs visit Stardock or TGT Soft.
for skins (windows os, boot, logon, etc) visit WinCustomize, ThemeXP, or SkinBase.

LINKS::
Stardock - Stardock
Bootskin (at stardock) - Bootskin
Logon Studio (at stardock) - Logon Studio
Keyboard LaunchPad (at stardock) - Keyboard LaunchPad
WinCustomize - WinCustomize
Logon screen hack tutorial (by sarah lane) - Logon Hack
StyleXP - StyleXP
ThemeXP - ThemeXP
SkinBase - SkinBase

*credits*
- the following people provided the stated references
Trin - Window Blinds at Stardock, SkinBase
Kayoko - StyleXP, ThemeXP

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k. so moving on. yesterday i finally got my new 19" Princeton LCD monitor. it's SO sweet!! it's actually 1" bigger than my previous monitor, but because it's LCD using a DVI cable i get MUCH clearer quality!! also it's SO much smaller. my old 19" (18" viewable) MAG monitor was massive. took up way too much of my desk. i could hardly put my keyboard in front of it. (remember, i'm using the side of my dad's desk that he set up while i was away!!). anyways. this thing is so beautiful. i'm so happy *cries*. XP

now that i got my monitor and skins all set up... i need a new mouse pad!!! dang it. and it's so freakin difficult to find an anime mousepad. i started with that, but it's so difficult i may just settle with a "normal" one. if any of y'all have any ideas or leads, please let me know!! thanks.

i just put up a new song. it's "Lift Me Up" by Moby off his new album, "Hotel". the album isn't all that great, but i found the video first and decided that it would be a cool song for my blog.

if any of y'all have any request for music please let me know. also, all the music i've put on my blog has come from my computer. i DO NOT use streaming music. so if you heard anything you like and want the file, let me know, i can get it to you. also to get the file for the currently playing song remember to check in your temporary internet folder on your comp. it should download to there automatically!!

k. all the good stuff it out of the way. now for the normal blogging type stuff. - i finally got over my illness early last week. thank you all for your concern. but now i'm just not feeling well in a different way. a broken heart or something, i don't know. well, anyways. i'm sick of feeling this way too, so i'm gonna do my best to overcome this as well. everyone please help me to do my best. thank you. - i actually restarted my project again yesterday, after about 2-3 weeks of not looking at it. i've got practially nothing to do other than the actually tweeking of the animation. i've done all the updating of the modelling, lighting, cleaning up, etc. now i have to sit down and tweak/redo all the animation. yay -__-!! this is what i've studied for. this is what i plan on doing for my career, but i'm so sick of this project now that it's become a burden to even look at it, much less "tweak". sheesh. what a pain. oh well. get it done, move on, and get a freakin job!! right?? yeah. - k. well there's nothing else i can think of right now. i am planning on doing one of those personal survey quizes that i've seen before (trin did one). so if you know of one, please let me know. thanks.

thank you all for coming. ja ne. oyasuminasai!!
-jafo-

p.s. i just realized that in the past 3 weeks i've only written 5 blogs. sheesh. that sucks. sumimasen!!

i don't know how to handle much more of this. i really don't. maybe it's just cause i've been sick and i feel like crap, but ... why?? WHY?? why is it that so many people feel the need to pick on me?? yes, i may deserve it most of the time, but, i'm not THAT bad am i?? i may not be a great person or a terrific friend, i don't even visit stinkin websites for entire months!! but, even outside of the internet... why is it?? what is the urge that people have to feel the need to belittle me so?? well, maybe it's just cause after all the crap i get from customers everyday that i don't take it well from my own friends. maybe that is all. i don't know. but right now... i just don't feel well. i barely even started and i feel like i need a break already. hmmph. K, SO, WELL, the follow was actually the blog that i wrote for tonight while at work. thanks, enjoy. -.jafo.-

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the other night kchan brought up an interesting question... "maybe the reason people are mean to you is because of YOU??" o.0!!! well, what do y'all think?? truthfully, i have thought about that very thing before. i have no other explination for the numerous people from throughout my life who've never met each other to tend to pick on me. what else could it be?? why do you people do it?? what part of me or my personality do you see that reads, "punch here"?? -__-; oh well.

also i've got yelled at so i need to make a couple things known::
1.) I HAVE NEVER HAD A GIRLFRIEND!!
2.) TRIN IS THE ONE WHO FOUND THE WEBSITE FOR WINDOW BLINDS!!!

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i'm gettin a flat panel monitor on monday!! WooHoo!!! X)
i actually felt well enough to do some house work yesterday too. hadn't done laundry in a while. dishes were pilling up, room was buried in dust. -__-; hehe. also, since i'm feelin better i'm able to get back to blogging. i've been away from it, haven't had time, didn't have energy, etc. felt so bored and lonely. eh, well. we'll see how long it lasts this time. X)

i'm writing this at work right now. it's my weekend to work, but i also got set for thur/fri night. yesterday i got a call from work... "Kara's grandmother passed away. She's leaving tonight, she won't be here the next 2 days." dang it. she was the one who was covering for the OTHER girl who was taking time off. oh well. a little extra padding in my next check. X) also luckily, a longshot worked out, so she'll fill in for tomorrow, but i'll still have to come in a little earlier. THEN, i get to work all weekend. YAY!!! XP ah well. life is life. .... but Red is Red, and he's a p.o.s.!!!

alright. it's 1:30 in the morning and our friends just left but i really wanted to write this out: CONTRARY TO POPULAR CONCEPTION, I, JAFO, AM not DEAD!!!

ok. so. recap:: over a month ago my mom gets really sick. she is diagnosed with an advanced strain of Type A flu. bad stuff. well, dad works and bro goes to school so i am stuff takin care of her. well, she's bedridden for over week, then decides to go to work. before the end of the week she's back in bed. same stuff, just didn't get rid of it completely. another week or 2. she's feelin better, goes back to work. 1 week later, she gets a "secondary infection" due to the flu she had. crap. all this time i'm takin care of her. dad's working and going back to school for his masters. all this is stressin him out and he's been a bit hard to live with lately. during all this time i'm trying very hard to keep up with my school work, however sometime along the way i catch a part of what she has. she is basically completely over it, but i'm STILL having symptoms that aren't going away very fast. so, the past couple months have sucked for me. sumimasen.
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HOWEVER, dispite my ill fate, i'm still alive and miss you guys so much. i love all y'all. i've been goin crazy being away from y'all for so long. *cries* *sniff* hugs?? *big watery eyes*

X)
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i have just discovered Windows Blinds. DUDE!!! this is so awesome. i was really nervous about it. what it would do to my system, my already customized features, etc etc. well, i went and did it. i downloaded the program and went looking for a skin. ..... i found EXACTLY what i had wanted. ok, i'm pretty odd. i like a lot of things but i usually know specifically, exactly what i like the most. well, wonderfully enough. there was a skin that i looked exactly what i had wanted windows xp to look like from the first time i installed it on my comp. it's so cool!! X) ok. well, anyways. you can get a look at it in the wallpaper section to the left. i also updated my wallpaper. X)

Window Blinds::
Stardock.com
GraphiteD skin for Window Blinds::
GraphiteD by Lightstar
Skins @ SkinBase.org
SkinBase.org
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you guys are awesome. i love you guys. X)

new music::
Blur
"Song 2"

I got my head checked
By a jumbo jet
It wasn't easy
But nothing is, no
Whoo hoo!
Well I feel heavy metal
Whoo hoo!
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Whoo hoo!
Well I lie and I'm easy
All of the time and I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet ya
I got my head done
When I was young
It's not my problem
It's not my problem
Whoo hoo!
Well I feel heavy metal
Whoo hoo!
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Whoo hoo!
Well I lie and I'm easy
All of the time and I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet ya
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah

(i've always heard and sang it this way::
"Pleased to meet you" - "Yes, i need you"
"I got my head done" - "I got my head dumbed") X)
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LOVE Y"ALL!! GOODNIGHT!!

most excellent!!!
on this day in history. jafo-jafo, has finally finished all primary work on his fanlistings page. he has also managed to create and finish a seperate and new picture page, that includes a picture of himself.

check 'em out::
Fanlisting Page
Pix_Page_


alrighty. i have work all weekend again, so i'm tired, i have to take a shower, then relax with a new ep of Bleach, then on to bed. GOODKNIGHT!!!

changed up the music. added a wallpaper image. "everybodies doin' it"!! X) took a few pictures will have those up probably tomorrow night. talked to kchan again for a little bit tonight but she's feeling ill. everyone should send love vides her way to make her feel better!! tomorrow is my brother's birthday. will probably have lots to do tomorrow and be busy all day. dang it. ah well. it only happens once a year. and that's all there is.

goodnight!! -.jafo.-


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Fenix TX
"Threesome"

And if there's nothing left to say
I'll string you along until I get my way
Use all those subtle inquiries
Like I want to know if you aim to please

And if you want to dance
If she wants to lead, I won't mind
Let's try this all again only faster now
Now go ahead and pretend I'm your master now
And if you want to dance, if she wants to lead
I'll go out of my way, I'll do anything
And one word is all I need

And if
You know it's all in your mind
Take your time with this one
You both deserve a good time
In every position that I can think of

If you want to dance, if she wants to leave
I'll go out of my way. I'll do anything
And one word is all I need

Let's try this all again, only faster now
Now go ahead and pretend I'm your master now
And if you want to dance, if she wants to lead
I'll go out of my way to make you believe
That your love is all I need

i had a pretty crappy weekend. friday sucked. i had way too much to. then i had to go into work. well, went i got home i was supposed to go to bed early cause i had to get up early to help Roc and Trin move. i stated up late, but got up early anyways. i got over there, but i didn't do much. moved a few pieces of furniture but that was about it. i was of course very much needed cause a few pieces were still nearly impossible to move even with me there. all in all it wasn't bad. i wish i coulda been more helpful though. they treated me to lunch and offered me supper too but i was tired and came back home, took a nap, got up for a bit then went back to bed.

sunday i went to church. i met my friends again that i hadn't seen in nearly a month. they decided to go to Quiznos. not my choice, but whatever. well, ended up that i didn't get to sit with my friends. i sat with .... "the girl", her evil sister, and a whole bunch of new people. needless to say i was very nervous and uncomfortable. strangely enough i also saw the other girl from work there too. major coinsidence since i hadn't seen her in nearly 4 months. (she works the opposite shifts from me) came back home and nothing. i changed and went to roc and trin's for a surprise visit. went to target and came back with a welcome mat for their front door as a housewarming present. as the best friend i should definately be the first with the house warming present right?? XP after that i went to best buy. i meant to go buy stand alone complex #4 but ended up buying Peacemaker box w/1, Samurai Champloo #1 with cd, and Yuna. i never seen yuna before but it was on sale and looked good. the champloo cd sucks. only the opening and ending songs are worth listening to. shoulda just bought the box w/1 and no cd. (the one i got didn't come with the box!!). still haven't seen peacemaker on dvd yet. (or yuna... at all). came home and nothing... don't remember what happened after that.

monday morning got up and burned a couple cds. grabbed some anime and went to roc's for them to watch. stayed just about an hour but i had to leave to go into work early. .... ON THE WAY over to roc's i passed through road construction... there was a big hole filled with water that they had been using to loosen up the dirt, so it was more mud than water. drinched my entire car, front to back, side to side. i was pissed!!! from roc's i went home to change. on the way to work, my hubcap fell off. after i realized what it was i went back to get it but it had been run over many times and shattered to bits. SO!!.... not only did i have to go in early on a really busy crappy monday evening, but i also messed up my car, lost my hubcap and didn't get to spend much time with my friend. .... i prayed really really hard to not have any more problems that day. well at the end of the work, it was pretty busy but it wasn't all that bad, and "the boss" never lost his temper. so, that was very nice.

TODAY (tuesday). woke up, went straight out to wash my car. had to rinse it off about 3 times before i added soap.... then i had to wash it twice. still cause of the sun and stuff it has lots of water spots and stuff. before i could get to the tires or cleaning the windows and inside, i got a call from mumz. i had to take my sickly brother back to school RIGHT NOW, then go to her work and help her with her crappy computer and also install a crappy dvd player in it. after i left her work i had to go to the grocery store, then pick up some food on the way home. it was nearly 7 before i got home and sat down to eat my food. i was TIRED!!! i ate and watched some tv. started some laundry then got online. kchan was online and i got to talk with her for long while. it was fun. i hadn't talked with her long time. that really made me happy!! next time kchan... i'll bring the chocolate!!! X)

that brings us to now. i'm tired. can't think straight. am barely able to type this out. i got a few things to do still before going to bed so...

GOODNIGHT!!! sleep well my friends. i will see ya'll later.
-.jafo.-