that dude pisses me off. "the boss" can't go a single day without bit**'in and whinin like a little brat kid. he needs to shut the hell up and leave the freak alone. he never complains about me (to my face) but he can't keep from complaining about every single little thing everyone else does. GEEZ!!! give it a d*mn rest already!!! sheesh.

it's annoying me to no end talking about this. i don't know how y'all can't stand listening to me. .... here is where i would suggest shooting me in the head to put me out of my misery, but i know that k-chan might actually take up that offer. X)

no new development today. took care of mother all day. stayed inside again. bored as hell. but i'm not very tired anymore. that's cool.

alright, later. I' OUT!!!

woohoo. i burned off another 40 cds the past 2 days. also beat P.N.03 again. i haven't played it in about 3 years. it's so much fun. X)

i've been taking care of my mother the past few days. she got really really sick saturday and has been in bed ever since then. she just left her room about 2 hours ago, and that's really good news. saturday, she barely had enough strength to make it to the bathroom. really really bad stuff!!! oh. the reason that i'm taking care of her is cause i'm home all day, while dad is at work and my brother is at school!!. but i'm so ready to get out of the house.

i worked all last weekend. i've been stuck inside the past few days, then i have work tomorrow and the next day (thrus,fri), and then i have to help my buddy Roc move on saturday. i don't mind helping at all, but he's gonna call me early!!! sheesh. way do people insist on being AWAKE when the sun it up?? i just don't get it. X) actually the real hard part will be staying out of Trin's way. she already told me that she doesn't want to have people help cause she doesn't want them to mess things up, and she doesn't want to have to have communication problems and whatnot. oh well, Roc told me that if i leave her alone and help only him it'll be alright. thanks Roc!!!

i'm just kidding Trin. it's for you too. i'll do my very best to try and not piss you off. X) see ya'll saturday.

so that's pretty much it. i'm tired, bored, and slightly sick. X)

ask questions, leave notes. make comments!!!
nightnight. sleep well.

woohoo. work is over!!! thanks k-chan for the comment!!! X)

ok. so. i changed up the music and the quotes. check em out. i put the song on auto start. but that pisses me off so i'm gonna turn that off once i'm done with this. also, i'm still working on my fanpics page, but i'm not done yet, and i have something else to do first.

i organized my cd's today. i've got 4 cases, but about half the cds were laying on my desk. X) anyways, i've got a couple cds to burn for Roc. the ones i promised him nearly a month ago. X( so i better get started on that.

oh yeah. the "own3d" picture war with d.a. has officially ended. d.a. has won. that last picture she showed made me pass out, then she STOLE the title from me.

take care. have fun. see ya later.

la-ti-da. it's my weekend to work. dang it.

leave a random comment. thanks. goodnight.

alright you critics!!! that dream in the previous post. that was just the most recent example that i could give, mostly cause i was just bored that day, the other is cause it was by far one of the least violent and passive of nearly any dream i've ever had.

yes, of course it would be nice to plead insanity and get sympathy, but i'm just saying it how it is. ... y'all should know by now that i think very seriously. i read and study every one of you. (and nearly every other person i meet) but i also try to get you to do the same for me. i try to explain myself a little bit at a time. show you more of who i really am. first off, my internet personality is slightly off. i'm not this talkative (unless i'm nervous), and the subjects are always way different. my real personality doesn't follow the suit of my internet self. anyways. that's all i was trying to explain before. i'm glad you all liked it.... (weirdos, liking child beating stories!!) X)

have a good night.
-.jafo.-

i was feeling rather ill last night. and i laid in bed, sick and trying to sleep i had a very peculiar dream::

i was older. i was in japan and had a family. my son was still young and did something very dishonorable. i was a gentle father who usually corrected him very lovingly. however, he was begining to become a dilenquent and needed harsher lessons. he was no longer taking heed from his father. so for this incident i slapped him. i then of course very lovingly sat down and talked with him, but i feared he was going out of hand. shortly after we moved back to america. (to this house in fact, strange eh??) well, i had another talk with him and let him know that this country and the one we came from were very different and we all had to behave very differently. well, not much time when by and he continued to be rebelious. as a loving father i spanked him for his misdeeds. he became angry. he yelled at me, then ran away from home. he came back a short while later, but he seemed very different. for some reason my fear grew so i sat him down and explained to him why i spanked him. i told him it was for his own good. that it was to help him learn to do the right thing in his own life. that later in life, learning to do the right thing would be invaluable. the pain that he would suffer from a spanking would go away very soon, but he would be a much better person for it. my fear was still very high so i explained to him about c.p.s. (child protective services). i told him that this country did not like parents to spank their children, and that if they found out, they would come and take him away from me. they would take him away and i'd probably never see him again. they would put him in the care of another family who would never love him as i did, and they would never teach him the lessons he should learn BEFORE he went out on his own. once you are on your own, those lessons you learned from your parents would be the most important things in your life. the pain would be far gone but yourself would be much wiser. if he was placed with a family who never taught him, never corrected him, then he would never become wiser till he was on his own, and by then it's far too late. as he sat there, he listened very carefully, then began to cry. he said that his friend told him it was wrong for a parent to spank their kid so his friend told him to call c.p.s., so he did. he said that they were on their way right now. but he changed his mind. he didn't want to be taken away. he was just upset and wanted me to stop spanking him. he didn't mean for all that to happen. i of course became quite overwhelmed and didn't know what to do. the people came, barging into the house looking for him to forcefully take him away. they found him hiding in my closet. he hid there on his own cause he didn't want to go, but even though he asked and begged them to let him stay, they wouldn't. they told him that what i did was wrong and i should never be allowed to do something like that. he continued to beg and plead as he began to cry, but they wouldn't listen. he turned to me and said he was sorry that all this happened. he didn't for any of it. he said he didn't want to go anymore. i told him it was alright. i understood everything. it will eventually all be ok, it wasn't his fault. and as they took him out all i could tell him was to be strong and remember me and everything that he learned. ..... then he was gone.



yeah, so, this is the kind of crap that i dream about. these are the kinds of thoughts that i think to myself during the day when i'm doing other things. these horrible, mean thoughts are about the only thing that runs through my head. why?? why am i so screwed up?? why do i think such horrible things?? i don't want to think about these things. i want to think happy thoughts. nice and loving things. but... this is what i get... well, at least now you know a little bit more about me. pretty screwed up eh??

if you have any thoughts or comment go ahead and leave em.

ja ne.

ps. there was actually a family that attends my church that had their 4 kids and baby taken away from them by the c.p.s. because some teacher of theirs suspected that they were being spanked, due to something one of the kids said (thought they never said it directly). none of the kids wanted to leave, it was just a mistake on the kids part. they came and took them all away for about a year. it was very sad.

to all my special friends, thank you for sticking with me for a whole year. i know there has been hard times, and i know i've confused and upset up much more. but thank you all very much for sticking with me and being great friends.

i wish you all a great valentines day.

from -.jafo.-


p.s. i tried to write this earlier but *cough* stuff happens.

d.a. says that the pix war continues, but i still will not accept her one and only entry to the challenge as being a subject of "owning"!!! well, despite that i've got yet another entry. the entry is the first pic.

the pix in this blog come from the game P.N.03 (product number 3) from Capcom for the Nintendo Gamecube. it is one of my most favorite games of all time. the female lead (the only human in the game) is Vanessa Z. Schneider. she is a hired bounty hunter/assassin. she is called upon by an anonymous cliet who equips her with a state of the art assault body suit. energy blasts are released from her hands and the gadget on the back is an energy drive used to deliver larger special attacks. the gun in the pictures below were conceptual ideas, they were removed from the game after the "palm shot" was implimented.

it's a pretty simple game. with great reply value. the story takes place over 11 missions. inbetween each mission you can participate in "trial missions" which earn you money and give you much needed experience for timing and controler skills. the story goes that she is hired to infiltrate and ultimately destroy the massive company C.A.M.S. for personal issues which are plot twists. each mission is predetermined with rooms unique to each mission. each set of trial missions include 5 levels of difficulty which can be replayed indefinately untill you pass the next mission. each trial mission is a set of 15 random rooms selected from the previous main missions. the trial missions are usually played many times more than the main missions and thus the rooms and game play can get stale very easily. that is not to say that each and every room is unique and intriging, but seen way too often. THE thing that keeps the game intriguing is the game style.

P.N.03 is a giant stylized third-person shooter game. but it is so much fun. the entire fundamentals of the shooting aspect are layed upon a dance style. from the very beginning of the game, Vanessa is always tapping her heel, her hands, and bobbing her head. (possibly listening to music, who knows??) she moves with grace and style relative to the beat, no matter what she's doing: shooting, spining, flipping, jumping or just sitting there. it's this style that makes the game everything that is it. the missions fun and challenging too though!!!

also, fyi. by the end of the game you are able to purchase up to 9 unique suits. each suit has different stats for power, defence, and specials. and each suit has a different set of special attacks. after beating the game and collecting every suit you are given a special suit with maxed out stats and all specials available. use that suit to play again on hard mode and you get the super special suit that has NO defence available.... well, that's cause most of the suit is removed!!! :shock: hehe.

it's a great game you should try it some time.
[LINE]

pWN3d 3N7|2`/ #3
***pictures removed*** (2-21-05)

the dancing protagonist

click for 800x600 wallpaper


fantastic website dedicated to P.N.03: pn03.co.uk
www[dot]pn03.co.uk

enjoy, .jafo.

the "pwn3d wars" continues... here is my second entry!! uhm... agro hasn't even made ONE entry!!! what kinda war is that?? ... enjoy!!

**picture removed (2-25-05)**

i got this off an old tshirt that i have since given to my brother. it was taken with a digicam, but the pictures came out bad. sorry.

.jafo.-

post has been removed due to copyright issues.

THANK YOU
-.jafo.-

ok. it's gonna take me a bit longer to finish my fanlistings page so in the mean time....

HOW MANY FANLISTINGS CAN YOU NAME???

uhm. 2 are just websites... "flictonic.net" and "rokudaime", but the rest you SHOULD be able to at least guess on. uhm. 2 are relationships, and 4 are series. extra credit for finding the 4 buttons that i made myself!!!

goodluck. ja ne.

i freakin did it. i finally put up my fanlistings page. it's not finished but it up!!! it's pictures only right now, no links yet. yahoo's piece of crap popup comes up, so i need to find another site to host it.

the main thing i don't like about fanlistings is that most sites have crappy pics, not pics at all or there just plain isn't a site for the character you want!!! that sucks!! so you get some nice pics for a site you don't care much about and no pics at all for a character that you absolutely adore!!! *sigh* sheesh, this is frustrating. .... oh well. i had fun doing this, so that's the important thing right??

k, well i need to get off. have fun you people and i'll catch y'all later.

as per d.a.'s request i have removed all pix from the blog... except the side bar ones. if you didn't get to get 'em, i'm sorry, go complain to d.a. cause she told me i had too many pix on my blog. .... or you could just ask me and i'll show 'em to you.

today was fun and laid-back. at bit boring but not a bad day. i spent a lot of time and effort over the weekend getting the rest of several different series downloaded so i could burn it all off my comp. so i spent quite i lot of time doing that. spend the 'tween time finishing Zelda for the second time.

As i may have said before in Zelda: The Wind Waker, there is a massive side quest where you go around and take pictures of every character, enemy and boss in the entire game. approximately 150 together all over the giant map. one very hard thing about it is that you have to be very precise in the picture you take. the "man" will only take full frontal pictures. if a toe is missing from the picture or you are a little too much to the side, he won't take it. but the HARDEST thing about this side quest is the camera you have will only hold 3 pix at a time, so after 3 pix you have to go back to the man to empty your camera... if you mess up a picture, you just wasted a bunch of time.

*important information* after you beat the game the first time you get to save it and start fresh but all the pics you took in the first run you get to keep in the second. way cool!!!

so, i took about 5 more pics today and got down to only 2 missing from the whole lot. they were ones that i missed at the very beginging of the game and i couldn't go back to get them. so i decided to get everything else, beat it, restart and get the last 2 i missed.....

after i beat the game, ..... it doesn't restart!!!! you only get ONE second pass. so everything that i've been doing since the first time i beat it is for nothing!!! .... since i can't restart and get the last 2. i have to delete my second game and redo it from the beginning making sure to get the ones i missed. ..... *sigh* that's just way too much work for me. it was fun the first time, but i just can't do it ALL, all over again.

welp. d.a. hope you get to feeling better. k-chan, hope you had a good time and didn't get stuck with a lot of work.

goodnight people.

p.s. oh, yeah. i've been working with all the pictures so while editing them i decided to retry fixing my sidebar picture.... get rid of the white fuzz around him. i had such a hard time with that before. well, i finally got it figured out. so i fixed up the catgirl picture too. do to the animation i had to remove the tail wagging. maybe later i'll figure out how to get it to work.

also i changed one of the links on the side. check it out!!

more pictures WEEEEEE!!!! -__-,

**Pictures removed 02-07-2005**

my .... fair lady

a la warhol...

sweet asuka-chan

my man... "what about... eyebrows??"

night night -.jafo.-

*header*

**Pictures removed 2-07-2005**

the death of jafo by k-chan

you've been own3d

my girl asuka

-.jafo.-

oh yeah. plain text post engine is back!!!! YES!!! THANK YOU ROCKY!!! .... and i didn't even have to go talk with him.... he's lucky. X)

today was nice. decided to burn more cds today so i started with a few and ended up burning about 30 or so. i burned more than that a couple other days this week. also copied some cds for mother so i got a bunch of play time on Zelda inbetween times. now i have a greater understanding of how much CRAP i have on my comp. sheesh, i really don't need all this. but it's so wonderful.

went to dinner tonight. but was too tired to play any games. am too tired now, but i don't want to sleep, so i'm staying up to post some on my blog and add some pics for you guys. i added a couple to the side, and uploaded a few more to switch em out later. since they're already loaded i might actually put them up some time. X) the next post will have a few also, and then maybe more tomorrow night or sunday.

i changed out the song the other day and am already looking for something to replace it with. i have a few in mind.

also after this i'll do a little work on my fanlistings page. i might stick up what i get done and just add to it as time goes. well, the main problem i have with MY fanlistings page is that there are so many pics to choose from and i.... have a hard time deciding which ONE to put up. X( also i have so many sites but have no idea how to place em... alphabetically or favorite.... "do i like this one more .... or this one...." X( it's hard. sumimasen.

p.s. did i mention "plain text" post is back?? THAT'S SO AWESOME!!!

night.
-.jafo.-

tblog sucks. i'm gonna probably keep saying that for a while. sorry!!

to whoever put my hit total way over 1,000... THANK YOU!!!!

it snowed today. it was so awesome. i wanted to go play in it real bad but i had to go to work. usually i go about 4 or 5, but i wasn't sure today so i called about 1 to ask. they said "well, you come in at noon today". it was "the boss" who always says mean things like that so i asked again. he repeated himself so i asked if he was being serious this time. he said yeah, i was supposed to be in hour ago. well sheesh. i wrote 5 down 2 weeks ago but they changed the schedule and didn't tell me. psychos!!! it's alright, i didn't get in trouble. i wasn't even harrassed much. it was a real nice easy day, which confused all of us. tuesdays are usually busy days. and also i got out earlier than closing so that was nice.

alright. i've got the next song lined up and i'm putting together some new quotes so bare with me. the next song coming up is probably my most favorite ever.... "I Am The Creator" by Dj Jean. although for lryics one of my most favorite is "A Certain Shade of Green" by Incubus. the original is pretty good, but the accustical version they did live (put onto dvd) was awesome.

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"A Certain Shade of Green" - Incubus

A certain shade of green,
tell me, is that what you need?
All signs around say move ahead.
Could someone please explain to me your ever present lack of speed?
Are your muscles bound by ropes?
Or do crutches cloud your day?
My sources say the road is clear,
and street signs point the way.

Are you gonna stand around till 2012 A.D.?
What are you waiting for?
A certain shade of green?
I think I grew a gray watching you procrastinate.
What are you waiting for?
A certain shade of green?

Would a written invitation
signed, "Choose now or lose it all,"
sedate your hesitation?
Or inflame and make you stall?
You've been raised in limitation,
but that glove never fit quite right.
The time has passed for hand-me-downs.
Choose anew, please evolve, take flight!!

What are you waiting for?
A written invitation?
A public declaration?
A private consolation?

crapper!!! the plain text poster still ain't working. geez. that's really annoying me. i need to go have a talk with rocky. geez. i hate the double space return crap!!!

i'm supposed to be doin my tutorials right now, but i want to. i'm tired or doing all this work. it sucks to have homework... something even more important than homework and i'm not even in school. this sucks.

k-chan said that there've been too many people rantin lately, so i'll try not to... the above was my only rant. the main reason i came here was to tell people that::

I NEED 85 MORE HITS BEFORE WEDNESDAY!!!!

it'd been nearly exactly 1 year on wednesday when i first came to tblog. and i'm only that much from 1000 hits. luckily very few of them are my own. so it's a pretty accurate rep of traffic. nice, ne??

i keep sayin i need to update my blog, but... still haven't. i hope that means i've been busy doing more important things. well, my goal is to get it updated before the end of the week. i work this weekend so i'll try to have it done before then.

i gotta get back to my work. ja ne.