yea!! i'm off today. i thought i was working today but i found out yesterday that i was not. woohoo!! but i am still working tomorrow (friday 12-6) and sunday (10-6). oh well. someone's got to do it. hopefully it'll be cold and everyone will go away and leave me alone. X)

well, that's about it i guess. i haven't been to anyone's blog since the my last "blog run". also d.a. went on a trip so i don't get to chat with her on im for a week or so. i hope glens is still there... but that means i also have to have time to chat too, which i probably won't. X( i also did a bit of fan listing work, and am pretty much all caught up. just a couple more sites to visit and then i can focus on setting up my page. sheesh. it's gonna be big but it's gonna be fun. X)

well, i hope you all are still enjoying yourself. ja ne.

it's cold. there's snow outside. it's dark already so whatever was left has turned to ice, but it's supposed to snow again tonight. so we MIGHT have a white christmas... finally!! yeah, right. whatever. if we have a white christmas i'd be really surprised. happy, but surprized. we haven't had but maybe 2 since i was born in this town.

whatever. the important thing is that last night i went to Roc's house. surprisingly, we had a gift exchange. they got for me a Tachi. a tachi is a short decorated katana. you should know what a katana is. it is the basic sword used by samurai. usually 3-4 foot long. the tachi is just at (or slightly over) 2 foot long. (from tip to pommel (the end of the hilt)). the true stance with a katana requires 2 hands, but the tachi only uses 1. now, it is a true sword and can be used for fighting, but they are usually used just for decoration. tachi was given by a lord to his top samurai warriors as a gift of honor and respect. anyways, it's really cool. i love my sword. now i need Roc to make a display holder for me. preferably one of those wooden stand ones. way cool. X)

*explanation of japanese swords*
when you think of a samurai, you usually image a particular kind of sword. that sword is called a katana. usually 3-4 foot long. this sword was invented at the beginning of the "Warring States" era in japan. prior to that, they use a longer sword (about 1-2 foot longer), called a daito. during this time this sword was very impractical against archers. thus they ran in close and used a very short sword (only about 1 foot long) called a tanto. near the time the katana was invented they created a larger sized tanto called the wakizashi. (about 2 foot long). this sword was used primarily for indoor combat where the katana would be too long for practical use. this is also the sword designated for 'seppuku', the act of ritual suicide. the wakizashi is not ONLY for 'seppuku' as i've heard so many times. it is used more for close range combat in tight quarters.

so thus, in order of length you have tanto, wakizashi, katana, daito. like i said, the daito have pretty much been completely replaced with the katana, and the tanto was upgraded to the wakizashi. and the tachi that i got is just a decorated wakizashi. there's a lot more info that i got, but this will do you for now.

all information i got is from::
http://www.angelfire.com/dragon/swords" title="http://www.angelfire.com/dragon/swords" target="_blank"http://www.angelfire.com/drag...
www[dot]angelfire[dot]com /dragon/swords
and from several google searches. so any incorrect info is not my fault. if i am wrong about something or you have something to add please let me know. i'd love to learn more about it all. thanks.

goodnight.

for k-chan's purpose i transcribed the lyrics to Naruto's Ending Theme song. what is written below is what AonE and Anbu have written. so if the japanese lyrics are wrong or if the translation is bad... don't blame me, i don't know japanese.

now i wrote it out a bit differently, but i wanted to keep the stanzas seperated and have the translations close enough for you to easily see the japanese and the translation at the same. enjoy. (i'll be putting the song up for reference probably tomorrow).

the purpose for this transibe is for me to show k-chan what is mean by "i see mountains of them." in my quotes list on the left. now you could possibly make your own assumption, but i think it's obvious that he (the writter of the lyrics) is talking about the people he mentions in the stanzas. that's my own humble opinion. thanks and goodnight. -JAFO-


Naruto's Ending Theme:
get up! ah, sumimasen
- get up! oh, i'm sorry.
goku tamani
- sometimes,
boku tamani
- sometimes i,
yume ni yabureru hito no kakera ga
- see the fragments of people whose dreams didn't come true
yama no youni mieru
- i see mountains of them.

kamisama ni
- begging to God,
hotokesama ni
- or to buddha,
sugari naiteru hito no kakera ga
- many people are just crying, as if they were mere fragments of man.
yama no youni mieru
- i see mountains of them.

dan, dan, dance de rendezvous
- dan, dan, dance then rendezvous
oor shouri no pouze da lan la lan
- Ole! this is a pose of victory. lan la lan!
shake, shake, shake, sagasoujyanai
- shake, shake, shake. let's look for it.
owaranai bai bai no rizumu de
- we shouldn't end it with the rhythm of bye-bye.

yama no youni mieru
yama no youni mieru
yama no youni mieru
yama no youni mieru

*disclaimer* (a bad one) i didn't own this song. i don't know who does, but someone does. whoever it is has full rights to everything involving this song.

it's sunday. i just got back from a large meal at Carino's Italian.

this morning i got up and went to church. i've been dressing up all week so i went in jeans and a nice shirt. right after i got to go to lunch with my friends at CiCi's Pizza. a really really cheap crappy pizza buffet. i would never ever eat there if there was some way i could change the minds of anyone who suggested it. but i'd do anything for my friends. X)

came home and played Metroid Prime for about an hour then went to a movie with Red... Limeny Snickett's A Series of Unfortunate Events. not too bad. it was rather a dark movie and way too distrubing for kids in my opinion, but rather enjoyable for a light entertaining movie. went straight to Carino's after that. "the boss" set up a store christmas dinner. so he payed for it all. Red payed for all the drinks (which i didn't partake of). so, it was nice. now i'm home, very very full and about to watch I,Robot that my family just rented. hope it doesn't suck TOO bad. XP

yesterday i think was even better. a real great day. i got up late.... the end. X) I"M JUST KIDDING!!! went early to Roc's house where i took him and Trin to Trin's gradutation. i've never been to any of the local university's graduations. they actually split the entire ceremony into 2 parts. the first ceremony was at 9AM. (good thing she wasn't in that one!!) X) the ceremony it self was held in the new sports arena (built by American Airlines). very very nice and very very big. cool building. roc and i had to save seats for about 19 people. each row is only 16 seats wide. ONLY!!. we did manage. luckily 3 seats exactly were left open on the row below the one we saved. the ceremony was nice, the opening was about half of the total. the presentations (name calling) took a long time. lots and lots of grads. the doctorites and masters took a long time just for them selves. (they get special presentations. ooo!!!). then finally it was over (less than 3 hours. not too bad). then i was graciously invited to dinner at Trin's parent's house where her grandparents and a couple other small families all gathered for a nice dinner. (or lunch). i came home after that, but i don't remember exactly what i did once i got back. oh well.

that's the important stuff, and everything that matters. i'll be working this week. wednesday night, thursday night (i think) and friday (noon till 6). then a full day on sunday. (i hate working on sundays!!).

if i don't write again till then... i wish you all a merry christmas and happy holidays.

goodnight. sleep well. - .j.a.f.o. -

"You want to move the world,
Start with your body.
Yo, come on you gotta start with something.
If you wanna move your mind,
Just move your body.
Move your mind, move your mind,
It's gonna cost you nothing.
You want to move someone,
Start with your body.
Yo come on and try to move somebody.
If you wanna move alone,
Then everybody will move along with you."
- Eiffel 65 - "Move your Body"

"we're gonna play the game, the playstation, all day,
with metal gear solid to tekken 3.
and from omega boost to resident evil
just play for the fun
cos we got it going on.

tekken 3, metal gear solid
resident evil, gran turismo, omega boost,
bloody roar, x-files, another world
come on
ridge racer
odd world
we get a living
that came in our posession

P. L. A. Y. S. T. A. T. I. O. N."
- Eiffel 65 - "My Console"
(Note:: I am a HUGE!!! Nintendo advocate, but
true "video game love" transends all consoles.) X)

"I cannot disguise,
All the stomach pains,
And the walking of the canes,
When you, do come out,
And you whisper up to me
In your life of tragedy,

But I cannot grow,
Till you eat the last of me,
Oh when will I be free,
And you, a parasite,
Just find another host,
Just another fool to roast,

Cause you,
My tapeworm tells me what to do, You,
My tapeworm tells me where to go,
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey(x4)

I cannot deny,
All the evil traits,
And the filling of the crates,
When you, do come out,
And you slither up to me
In your pimpin majesty,

But I cannot grow,
Till you eat the last of me,
Oh when will I be free,
And you, a parasite,
Just find another host,
Just another stool to post,

Cause you,
My tapeworm tells me what to do, You,
My tapeworm tells me where to go,
Pull the tapeworm out of your ass, Hey(x4)
Pull the tapeworm out of me?

I'm just sitting in my room,
With a needle in my hand,
Just waiting for the tomb,
Of some old dying man,
Sitting in my room,
With a needle in my hand,
Just waiting for the tomb,
Of some old dying man?."
- System of a Down - "Needles"

(lyrics provided by AZlyrics.com,
i am not to blame for miswritten lyrics.) X)

have fun. ja ne.

p.s. i now have 1000 tbucks but only 83** hits.
my wish is to have 10000 by feburary. my 1st annual
tblog anniversary. XP i don't know what happened, but
tlbog only lists me back to april, but that isn't correct!!

hmm. no new comments. it's alright. everyone's busy now, or gone to do holiday stuff. HAPPY HOLIDAY, everyone. enjoy your time.

it's friday. i still have a bunch of work to do. are far as i recall i haven't worked on my school work at all this week. crap. i really need to do that today. but i also have presents to wrap and numerous other things to do too. but i really really want to update my blog too. i need to put up a new song, take down a couple links, and completely redo all those old quotes. but i have a big day tomorrow and i have to get up earlier for it, so i don't know if i'll be able to get to it today. dang it. that's the one thing i WANT to do of all the stuff i HAVE to do. X)

alright. y'all have fun. enjoy yourselves. if you come by, leave me a note, tell me what your plans are for the holidays. long notes are welcome too. X)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS. goodnight.


"I'll lay me down tonight
Much further down
Swim in the calm tonight
This art does drown

(What follows) me as the whitest lace of light
(Will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
What follows has lead me to this place
where I belong, with all erased"
- AFI - "Girls Not Grey"

alrighty. THANK YOU ALL for all your hugs (and kisses), and your deep, warm-hearted, caring, sympathic comments. they mean so much to me. last week i just had a really crappy time. i blamed a lot of it on tblog and this and that, and said a bunch of stuff i didn't mean out of anger. i appologize to everyone. i'm sorry. i was angry and depressed and basically just had a mood swing. (i've told ya that i am unstable!!). but i am much better now, thanks only to you all. without all of your wonderful replies i would not be any better than before. thank you all for your help getting me through this and for being with me when i wasn't myself. it mean so much to me to know that y'all stuck by me when i didn't even want to be with myself. X)

*bows* thank you. *hugs for everyone!!*


alright, on to less mushy stuff. thanks to k-chan and d.a.'s help i think i've figured out how to get my fanlisting page up and running the way i want to. i still have a bit of work to do before then, but now i can start testing the page and my code and stuff. so look forward to that.

goodnight. and thanks again.

i am tired. it's so exhausting to keep ones emotions in check and keep one's self from physically harming another when that is the only thing you can think about. maybe i should try to think about something else everytime i think about killing someone?? but what?? i'm not very smart and i'd have to think oh so much every day if that were true. X) brownies are good. maybe i should think about them. it might help if i ate some first though. X)

my parents are becoming upset with how late i have been staying up. i've been staying up rather late surfing the web and this and that, trying to calm down and relax. do anything to get my mind off all my angry thoughts. X) i found a cryptic note on the fridge. looks like it's related to the times of how late i've been staying up. will probably get "talked to" tonight. oh geez. just one more thing to stress out about all day.

if anyone's still out there... "say a little prayer for me".

hmm. today wasn't so bad. not nearly as *fill in* as yesterday. truthfully, i have reached the point to where if i were to become any more upset about the situation i am in, i would go holistically insane. so there is no futher bounds of anger for me to decend to. i am completely upset, hurt and saddened, but i don't see how i could become much worse without destroying my sanity. thus, the only thing left of me to do, is ride it out, keep a smile on my face (not on my heart) and live for the hope that things will get better eventually. i hope things DO get better. my hope is riding thin....... i would hope that things would go back to the way they were before, but that would be too much to ask after all that has happened. ..... my friends.... please forgive me, but i can do nothing else but this. i can not take back what i have said, or have done, and i can't ask for you to forgive me either, but that's all i have left. there is nother more left of me. i must rebuild myself once again. start anew. bandage and reheal. ..... old wounds are such a bitch.

........hmm...... other than THAT!!!........ here is my weekend:: i nearly killed the old man. "the boss" would not quit bitchin about ANYTHING. he bitched about work, bitched about not working, bitched about this and that and mostly about Red. he says so many good things about Red, but if you heard the things he said to ME about the things he DOES.... "blame not the man, but his actions". he is definately back to his old self personality wise. he's slightly slower though, physically. but it is all taken with a grain of salt, because no man (or woman) can do ANYTHING as well as himself except if they have a hint of his blood or marraige approval. (3 daughters, 3 sons, and inlaw kids). there is NONE as perfect as he and his immediate family!!! gah. i would have killed myself after slaying him.

that was saturday. VERY BUSY!!! (for me!!!) he quite enjoyed himself in the back room watching tv, taking a few naps and walking about the store. me, however never stopped with the immediate work, clerical work, additional stock work, and the never ending line of customers. i know its christmas time, but that's not my concern. i'm specially trained for other things. (freakin boss). my first break of the 9-9 shift was 6:30. i barely managed to squeeze 3/4ths of a sandwich into my mouth between tasks and customers. it don't matter about presentability when it's 3 o'clock and haven't had anything to eat all day. and if the customers can't understand.... get a real job!!!

but that was yesterday... TODAY!!! was MUCH better. first break at 10:15 on at 10-6 shift. read nearly 5 chapters of my alice in wonderland book inbetween piddly jobs that "the boss" scrounged up for me to do in order for me not to be so ...... not working!!! him and his damn impatience meant i did most of yesterday. what i did today was jiberish, and took no time at all. i GLADLY helped many of the customers today. but then again. as i said before..... i have changed my attitude quite drastically from yesterday. X)

apart from that i have decided to stay on tblog for a bit longer. it has nothing to do with any of you though. going down the list (not of importance!!!):: Trin, i see in person, so is not a big deal to leave here; d.a., i get to talk to her on messenger quite a bit.; k-chan, hates my guts now, so would not care if i left or not i think.; glens, has pretty much left tblog already, and i talk to her more often on messenger anyways.. so no personal attatchments to tblog. i like coming here and verbalizing my feelings.... my day... my anger. so, for now... i am still here... but have resolved that if i get "too" angry, i will stay away till i can calm myself a bit. there is no need to reintroduce the world to "darkjafo". X)

SO, if you are reading this, and are my friend or would like to become my friend, and have forgiven me of myself and would like to be my friend (again), then please please please, leave a comment.

thanks and goodnight. - lovingly, jafo.

i need some help making a basic link code for my site. if you just came here at random, and know html, please help a poor guy out.

i'm looking to make a basic text link that when clicked opens a new window with preset size and no toolbar, menubar, etc, just scroll bars.

i have learned how to make a similar link but it does not LOOK like a text link. there is no underline or mouse over features.

if you could help me out i'd REALLY appreciate it. please leave a comment or send me a pm.

thanks. - jafo.

it's Friday at Noon. i haven't written a blog in a while but i keep trying nearly every night. the other night i started writing one out almost 8 times. right now, still, i'm highly upset. i had a great weekend, spent time with my friends, including Roc and Trin, but about wednesday i just couldn't stand it anymore. everything was going wrong and everything pissed me off. that was the main topic of my unfinished blogs. i don't know what happened, but everything i know has been turned against me. things just aren't going the way they should. was perfectly normal before that, but not since wednesday. it just all turned to hell. i don't what caused this, but as i said, nearly everything i know is against me now. (i even turned k-chan against me. don't know how THAT happened.) so there's there's basically no need to list it ALL, and there's nothing absolutely no need to continue with this conversation so i'll just move on. oh yeah. guess i should tell you first that i've seriously been thinking about leaving tblog because of this.

...........

over the weekend, when i had more free time, i decided it was past time to list my interests. i've been wanting to do this for a while but could never decide how to do this. the usual manner is of course a simple text list on the side of a blog. another method is a giant link list to all sorts of websites. well, the first is way too boring and lengthy, the second is also "just not enough" but you can get way too much info by visiting the listed sites, but usually they're just obscure music group sites, usually fan sites, not even the offical pages. well, i knew of Trin's fanlisting pic links on her page, and i remember i had seem a few before, but all i ever saw were for hollywood movies and respective characters or actors. this isn't exactly my choice of interests. my hobbie/interest are basically anime only. so i decided to go to a few sites, get a couple pixs and make my own clickable pix to designated sites. the first step was to find sites for anime that already had fanlistings. that'd make my job a lot easier. to get a few out of the way that were already ready for me. ........................................

there are about 5,000 approved anime fanlistings on The Anime Fanlistings Network alone. i found a few other fanlisting networks but this seems to be the "official" network. they are partner/sister site to The Fanlistings Network that covers pretty much every thing but anime. they are the parent site and THE official fanlistings network of them all. (so it seems). well, i got real excited over all of this. i went on a spree and bookmarked about 30+ websites that i have intersts in. it was quite easy to go from one fanlisting to another. each one usually has links to related fanlistings and the network site is huge and so easy to just click and go. strangly most every site was exclusive to characters only. i don't recall a single fanlisting dedicated to one series as a whole. i DID see however several sites dedicated to theme songs, character rivalries or relationships, and ever manga-ka (japanese comic creators). using the network and working my way through characters of particular series, there were still several characters that i love that didn't have fanlistings. in fact my most favorite character of all had links to a fanlisting, but the page was gone. AAAHH!!! luckily i found a couple shrine sites that i could link to instead. i think that would work alright. it's nearly a fanlisting, and its still a quick and easy way to learn about one of my interests.

well, i haven't joined any fanlisting yet. i've thought about, but i don't want my email put up. since these are offical, approved fanlistings they REQUIRE listing the correct email. if the email is false or you don't want to have your email listed (just your name), they are not allowed to list you. those are official rules.

well, now that i got this spiffy way of showing off my interests, i have to figure a way to show em to you. the thing about fanlistings is that they all got cool little buttons that you take to display on your own site. so i got all these buttons that i need to put somewhere. well, i have WAY too many to put on tblog. so i need to make a seperate page. but i don't need some huge window to show off small buttons. i decided to make a page that would show in a small predefined width and heigth window. the problem with wanting to do this is that i'd have to learn and write web code to pull it off.

...................

shortly after my fanlisting search i went looking for ways to create my fanlisting page. i know for sure i want a text link that can be clicked to bring up a predefined sized window, without the toolbar, menubar, etc. i only want the titlebar, scroll bar, and my page. this is a lot harder to find than i thought. i've searched now 3 websites and went through several tutorials. learned many basic html codes, did a bunch of scans through the site. i went back to the only site i know that does exactly what i want to do. i opened up their sourse code and looked at how they wrote their web code. completely indecernable. but i copied the code exact, translated it to my page and desired specs, and it works. HOWEVER. for ME, the link doesn't look the same. the actual clickable link looks exacty the same as plain text. unless i really made it stand out somehow you would never realize that you could click it to go to another page. so once again i have to figure out how to make my now working clickable link LOOK like a working clickable link. if you know code and could possibly help me. please do. leave a comment, send me a pm, whatever. and i'm not in a rush or anything. i still have to finish my fanlisting gathering, and actually make the page. but within the next month or so would be nice. thanx.

due to the fanlistings and the html code learning i've been staying up way later than i usually do. and i've been very tired all this week. wednesday, mostly due to the anger issue i guess, my brain just shut down on me. i couldn't think at all. basic motory functions weren't working properly and my head began to ache. my headaches were the main reason i never finished any of my blogs that day. the past couple days i've even been taking naps in the middle of the day (or evening). it's nice. they help, but then i stay up late, so it didn't do me much good in the end.

............................

moving on, another fantactic thing i learned tuesday was that "the boss" will be working this weekend in place of Red. DANG IT!!! it's bad enough that i have to work the weekends, but now i have to work one with HIM!!! what happened was a few weeks ago, "the boss" went in to have some surgery done. back up.... after "the boss" had his shoulder fixed, he went in to have his knee looked at to be fixed. they looked at his knee and found that he needed a 6way heart bypass. yes, that is the number SIX. so he's been out or a few weeks and Red has been filling in all the time by himself (on top of his own shifts. hehe). well, now he's trying to ween himself back into work. he's still slow and can't do much but he does what he can. so he came back last weekend, will be working this weekend, then hopefully fit back into his own rotation on the following thursday. if not, then there may be some weird scheduling after that. i feel bad for "the boss". he's old, has major major joint problems, which causes him to have a major limp, and i recently found out that he got diagnosed with bone cancer earlier this year. what bad luck. but like i said.... he's old. HOWEVER, that doesn't excuse him from being such a pain in the arse. he can be a very nice guy, but he can't multitask and get angered way too easily, which he then begins to yell, curse and throw things. yes, he picks up objects and throws them across the room. there's absolutely no fitting reason for ANYONE to do something like that. and it just makes it so very hard to work with him.

........................

ok. y'all have had enough for now. i'm pretty much well caught up on everything for this week. and i'll be working all weekend again, so i'll see you guys on the flip side. ..... later. (it is now 1'oclock)

i had a dream last night. i don't have them often but they are usually pretty odd. i woke up soon after my dream was over and it was so obscure i thought i should share it. now, my dreams are always pretty vivid but always nonsensicle. so don't read too much into it. i am only posting it to let you see what kind of dreams i have. now there is way more detail in my dream that i just could not write it all out. but here's the main stuff.

supporting information::
involved character:: i don't know why any of the people in my dream were involved. makes no sense.
glens phone number:: i don't have her number. i don't know where that came from.
Devin:: an old high school friend who moved away our junior year. he now lives in seatle with his wife and is in the navy.
Devin's parents:: his parents live in Tulsa, OK. they are a great family and treat me like one of their own.
Dennis, Davis and Sam:: an indian cousin, brother and brother who now attend our church. they're great friends and we look after them like extended family while they are here attending college. they have never met devin or his parents.


ok now for the dream...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
my dream - 12-4-2004

my cell phone goes off. i struggle to get it out of my jeans pocket. i always have a hard time getting it out of my pocket, but that's the only place i can put it. i get it out, flip it open and check the id. it says it's from Glens. Stange, why would she be calling me. She's never called me before. i only have her number in her in case of emergencies. i answer it. she's a little histerical. somethings going on. something is upsetting her. she's crying and the phone keeps cutting out. i don't understand anything that she's trying to tell me. then, the phone dies. great. just great. right in the middle of a very important phone call and it dies on me. what the hell am i gonna do?? i run to the nearest house that i know. it's devin's parent's house. they aren't answering. it's late and i'm banging like a mad person. why aren't they answering?? i check the door and it's not locked, so i just open it up and go inside. for some reason, probably massive memory loss, i start running straight for the back door. through the hall way, past the living room and around the dining table. running that fast i trip over one of the chairs at the table. a small collision and a phone drops to the ground from the cabnet against the wall. i pick it up and run out the back door at the end of the dining room. i sit down on the back porch and begin dialing the number. i reach up and pull the door closed, but don't latch it, in case i need to get back in. the line picks up and there's a rather scruffy voice that answers with "What the hell you want??". i'm a bit shocked by this, but i'm focused. "Yes sir, may i speak with Glens please??". "Who the hell is this??". "She just called, but my phone died. I need to speak to her right away please!!". he starts being rather beligerant and keeps asking why i'm calling, how i know his daughter and what the hell is going on. i ignore all his questions. i tell him that i'm just a friend of hers and she just called me from this number and i was just returning the call. he doesn't buy it. he gets more and more perturbed. i can't stand this anymore. he's being to obtrusive. he won't let me speak with her. so i straighten up and yell into the phone. "Listen, *foul word* i just need to talk to your daughter. there's nothing going on between me and her. i'm her friend and she just called me. she's in trouble and i need to speak with her. so give her the phone right now, *foul word*!!!". he wasn't phased by this. he kept being obtrusive and asking the same questions over and over again no matter how many times i answered him. due to the shouting that was now going on, devin's parents come to the back door. they were up stairs sleeping. i tell them i'm very sorry. i didn't know they were here, or sleeping. i just came in to use the phone. i told them i was sorry for waking them. they said it's alright, just come inside. i get up and go inside, continueing my conversation with Glen's father. about this time the door bell rings and a few of my other friends walk in. it's Dennis, Davis and Sam. Dennis, the most collected of them all ask the parents what was going on. they tell him. he comes up to me and asks how i'm doing and how things are going. well, i still wasn't making progress i tell him. i get udderly perturbed by the conversation and realize i'm making absolutely no progress, so i just hang up the phone. i appologize to devin's parents for the intrusion of us all and mention to my friends that we should leave so they could get back to sleep. they agree, we say our good byes and we leave.

there is more to this story, but not much. it makes even less sense than the above and it ends abrubtly.

hmm. well i guess several days ago i was PLANNING on writing a blog about why i've been absent and whatnot, but i guess i never DID write it out. sheesh.

wednesday, my uncle flew into town and i got kicked out of my room. thursday, my sis, her family and a few of my friends from church came over. their names are Dennis, Davis and Sam. (relevant in the next post) X)

my SISTER brought with her, her husband and my 2 young nephews. one is about 8 the other is less than 2. the youngen had a runny drippy snotty nose. it ran and ran and ran. of course being only less than 2 he'd wipe his nose off with his hand and go around touching everything and everyone in the house. ME, my uncle, my mother and my brother all got sick. i got sick thursday night, had to be at work friday night. at the end of friday i was worse, but i had to be at work at 9 in the morning and stay till 9 at night. 12 hours!!! then another 8 hours Sunday. monday i was off and i got to rest up a bit, but by tuesday i wasn't any better at. i had to work tuesday night, but was off wednesday and i've been off since. (it's saturday now). wednesday i had finally gotten over most of my illnesses. earlier this morning i still had a slight headache and nausea.

stupid kid. i really don't blame him at all. he's only 1 and he has no control over things like that. i really blame my sister for being so careless and inconsiderate. it was real nice to have her down for thanksgiving but because she was so irresponsible 4 working adults got sick. totally unnecessary. my grandma came down late thanksgiving day, but luckily she didn't get sick. if she had it could have been much worse for her than any of the rest of us. she's too old. i think i had the worse of it of us all. but i refused to go see a doctor and get medicine. it was only a cold. it wouldn't have been NEARLY as bad if i hadn't had to work so freakin much. at least i got from tuesday till monday off. very nice!! X)

well. due to airline schedules and whatnot my grandmother didn't leave till early wednesday morning. so i didn't get back into my own bed till wednesday night. before thanksgiving i was busy preparing for the upcoming events and trying to get as much school work as i could get done before all this started.

THAT is the reason i haven't been on in a while. i do appologize to everyone for being so absent and not getting around to all your blogs. i plan to get to each of them as soon as i can. i had to start with Trin and i got caught up on that. i was nearly more than a month behind on her's alone. then d.a. asked me to look at hers. she only had 2 posts so that wasn't bad. Glens has asked me to go check her's out a couple weeks ago. X( k-chan's..... oh boy. it's been well over a month. probably closer to 2. i feel like such a bad friend. X( i'm sorry k-chan. i'll be there soon. i promise. i don't think i'd be able to catch up on ALL of it. you write more than me and everyone else combined. X) i'll start with the page you got and try to keep up from there. *feels real bad* i'm sorry k-chan. AH-HA. i was informed that you had new links and a new blog with a pic on it. i went and looked at it. very nice. very cute, k-chan. i'm glad i could finally get to see what you look like. hehe, k-chan is cute too. X)

ok. well i've finally got to see what you all look like. i should put a page up of all your pics and let you see what each of you look like. (but i won't) cause you all say you are fat and ugly. well, i'm a guy and i've seen pics of all of you and i can't honestly say you all are very cute.

ok. well i got a bit more to do so i better go for now. but i'll do my best to catch up when i can. goodnight.


oh yeah. i forgot to tell y'all. you are all super fans. thank you. X)

just got back from Roc and Trin's house. man, i miss those guys. been sick all this freakin time and couldn't get out of the house. Roc invited me over so, i, of course couldn't (wouldn't want to) decline. it was really really nice. i haven't enjoyed my time in quite a while. now usually (as i've said before) i come away all sad and depressed. but this time i was honestly completely happy. also i think i got along with 'em both a lot better than before. i definately noticed that i went with a much different atmosphere/personality/so mething. i think that is what made the major difference for me. also due to reading the recent posts in Trin's blog it brought to life more things that helped me. also it reminded me of several things that i had forgotten and used previously. that's all weird and everything i'm sure, but i just hope that i can recall that feeling/personality/whate ver it was the next time. i wonder if Roc and Trin noticed. i wonder what they tought about it. oh well, i had fun and everything turned out alright, so i guess it doesn't matter right??

not much else has happened the past couple days. i'm on the down slide of getting better. i had a few lagging symptoms and a few bodily reactions to overcoming sickness, such as upset stomach usually due to over use of stomach acid used to fight what bacteria makes it to the stomach, usually via attachment to food. crazy crazy stuff. i wish i'd all be over and done with and i'd just be fine again.

ok. goodnight. ja ne. - .jafo. -

"There is a bar they call The Bitter Sea.
And she sits and drinks a velvet crush
--that's Kool Aid and gin-- casing the clientele
Like a relentless cameraman.
She is Elsewhere. She says You keep a-knocking
But you can't come in, and I say Little Sister,
don't you do what your Big Sister does.

Spiral down down down down down down down"
- Soul Coughing - "Mr. Bitterness"