hmm. only been two days. did lots of stuff. but nothing really happened. nothing important.

downloaded that dang "Trillian" messenger a few nights ago cause d.a. got online and was pestering me about not using the same messenger as her...... well, excUUUUUUUSE ME!!! :roll: well. of course being a new program i have to go through the whole thing and disect it and set it ALL up the exact way i want it. just barely sort of got that done today. still a few tweeks to work out, but the program is growing on me.

last night. my friend tone gets online. but glen gets online too and invites me to some bizarre chat room with this pyschotic friend of hers. and she's never even met the guy. then she goes and pulls in her ex-love interest (she claims to only be friends now) and starts goin psycho on the dude. i'm sittin there wondering why the hell am i there!! (fyi::) glens goes off and is busy for a little bit, so i start talkin to her friend. although he's a bit "off" he still seems like a pretty decent fellow. well, since i was tied up in all that mess (still confused) my old friend tone it sittin over there (yeah yeah, i know it's my fault, i ain't blamin nobody), so i get off with her and her "friends" and talk with tone. it's about midnight now and all of a sudden, my dad walks in. so i put tone on hold again, and dad keeps comin in and out trying to get this freakin resume printed out for some managerial position. doesn't LEAVE!!!! until 2 in the morning. sheesh. well. that makes it midnight for my friend, and he's got school in the morning so i just gave up. well, this morning i got to talk with him a little bit. it was fun. i really miss him. he was a really good friend.

i've been thinking about a lot of different things lately. but none of it........ is tangable. it's all pointless thoughts. well, it worried me. so i tried to start thinking about deep heavy stuff..... still didn't work. my mind has shut down. it doesn't want to "think" about anything more than 3 seconds. it feels quite weird. but i'm very relieved. i've been dealing with too much heavy stuff lately and it's all just been stressing me out. oh. i should thank glens and d.a. for being real nice to me and talking to me online. apart from you 2, there are only 2 other people i talk to online. tone, mike, and (anime store owner lady). tone and mike are very rarely ever on, or have the time to talk so together they only count as 1. :wink:

tonight. i sort of finally finished my tutorial that i started several days ago. it's a lighting tutorial for my 3D animation program. it's the first of the lighting tuts. real simple. it starts you with a small box with one red wall and one blue wall, and 2 balls inside. one ball is chrome (reflective) and one ball is glass (transparent). you end up with 4 lights total. all together they are supposed to accurately similate the result of one light bulb in the ceiling. just think how it is for outdoors and multi lighted situations!!! (very complex). ok. well the point IS!!! i got nearly finished with the tut, when all of a sudden the shadow of one of the balls disappears!!!! the pic in the tutorial shows some weird purple shadow, but me... NOTHING!!! so being thouroughly perplexed i went and redid the whole tutoral being VERY careful to follow EVERY instruction. it happened again. so, just to be sure i did it all again. same result. today:: i opened it up, started from the very beginning, fresh, and read every single word. did every little thing. it still happened. so, after it happened i just sat there and fiddled with EVERYTHING until i got something fairly close to what the picture looked like. it turned out..... that was the very last thing to do!!! if you could get all that to work, you were finished with that tutorial. AAAGGGG!!! very frustrating. whatever.

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did you enjoy all that?? just meaningless dribble cause my fans demand it. (*under breath* just wish they commented more *cough*)
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goodnight y'all. sleep well. you are ALL special to me.

hmm. so i haven't posted in about a week. sorry. been a little busy. so lets get to it!!! first... the answers::

answers to the jafo pic question::
Kayoko and Trin were nearly completely correct, but not totally. half open eyes and no smile:: i show very little emotional response. nearly all outward appearance is just forced so that those around me will better know how i feel. if there's no one around or i don't care, i show very little emotional response to anything. but then again, that's how i feel most the time. i also like to think it's a sort of "dreamy state", cause most the day i'm half awake and tired!!! i should also put here, that people keep asking what i'm mad about... "i'm not mad"... "well, you LOOK mad".... "i'm not, that's just how i look sometimes". :roll: - angel wings and halo:: yeah, i'd like to think i'm a little angel. one of my old nicknames is "silly angel" which i took from a Filter song. haha. also i just really like wings. such as faires, angels, butterflies and moths, etc etc. - all blue clothes:: this actually came because of Trin. she once told me that all i wear is blue and a little black. so i came back home and found that nearly half my closet is blue. the rest is a little black, some white, a few others. (hmm, can't believe she didn't get that one!!) - - i didn't ask why i was wearing a beard or "Jafo" across my shirt, but i assume you could figure that out. :wink:



so for partially correct answers Kayoko and Trin are winners. also Glens gets complamentory prizes for playing. that, and well, i just wanna. :wink: SO, you three, send me pm and i'll give you whatever you want... tbucks, cookies (!!!), cd, flowers, or something not so out of the way. :wink: thanks for playin ladies.

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ok, this weekend... i nearly bled to death!!! hehe. i worked a lot of hours last week. i was at church wednesday night. wednesday we start with a large dinner for all at 6, then meet in the sancturary at 7 to give prayer requests. when that's over at about 8 someone gives a small speech. during this speech, my phone started vibrating. hmm. it was the new girl at work. she wanted to switch a day with me. thursday (4-9) for saturday (10-3). that means i'll lose most my free time saturday. and i haven't been off the weekend for a while. but.... i accepted anyways. she still hasn't given me the reason yet, but if it's not good enough, that may be the last time i do it. i believe she wanted the weekend off to spend time with her boyfriend who probably came in to town over the weekend. hmm. that'd make me a little upset. whatever. so saturday night after work, i call all my friends. Roc and Trin are busy, they can't do anything. :roll: Matt was on his way to go pick up his girlfriend from the airport. :evil: steve-o was working and sick, says he probably wouldn't do anything that night either. ("booooo!!!") ..... so i stay at home and play Final Fantasy some more. haven't played it in a while, but i wanted to play some video game and i happened to buy the strategy guide about a month ago. turns out, i missed a bunch of stuff, and don't have the best sword, armor, shield, etc. so i spent a good while playing that when.... Ben calls. Roc told me earlier that he was with his girlfriend at the mall. well, turns out he and a group are going to play pool. so i go ahead and go. steve-o's there. (butthead). after we leave, i'm stayin outside and one of the new guys who just moved to town, turns to me and steve-o.... he's got some serious business he wants to talk about. it's already after midnight. and it's cold and started raining... again. so we're out there talking and the back of my next starts itching... so i scratch it. it felt a little funny, so i look at my hand and it's all bloody. bloody hell. the dude still hasn't finished talking and i can't go back into inside, so i get a few napkins out of steve-o's car and continue talking for a while. eventualy it's late and we leave. about 2 in the morning i get home, i've been through 3 whole napkins by then and it still won't stop bleeding. (it's just an old freakin scab that just won't heal). i'm in the bathroom using papertowels, cold water, ice, etc etc etc. about 3 i'm just so tired i barely get it to stop, so i put a bandaid on it and go to bed. well, it's monday, and it hasn't bled anymore, but i'm still using bandaids. this is starting to piss me off.

Sunday morning, cause i didn't get to bed till 3 (or later) i miss church. the phone rings, and i check the clock. it's 1 in the afternoon. it's Sam, telling me that a bunch of the church kids are coming over to eat lunch. just freakin great. so i jump out of bed, and before i can get in the shower, i hear the door open. by the time i'm cleaned up and come out, nearly everyone's there. great!!! thanks mom for calling in advance to tell me. :evil: everyone leaves and the assistant boss calls... want to know if i want to go watch a movie with him.... *confused* uhm, sure. why not?? went to go see "the forgotten". a well done movie, but really wack. really really wack. is not recommended by jafo. get home and find the family watching the new Star Wars dvds that they borrowed from someone (???). then dad makes chili for us. oh yeah.. good stuff!!!

TODAY!!! it's monday. still raining off and on. been like that for several days now. the FAIR is in town, but is pretty much rained out. that sucks. i always go get food from the fair. i went last year with Roc and Trin. don't know if i'll get to go again. that's makes me sad. oh.... yeah yeah, got sidetracked... pretty much the only real thing i did today was watch Star Wars ep 5. i REALLY like the new dvds. they're so clear. even better than the original films. i'm really impressed. actually i got stopped about 3 times while watching it. went and had lunch with mom, took her around town to a few places she needed to go, cause her car's in the shop, then again, i had to go take a friend of her's to the airport, cause HER friend doen't like driving and bailed on her when it started raining this morning, and as my mom's car's in the shop, i got picked to help. whatever. i still got to watch it before anyone came back home for the day.

which brings us to now. right now.... well.... i'm bloggin aren't i?? hehe. it's been fun. hope to be back to this sooner. take care of y'all selfs. JA.

oh oh. almost forgot. friday night after work i got on to see about Naruto 102. turns out Anbu had put it up just 11 minutes before. WOOHOO!!! it started with 1 seeder and 24 leechers. after 4 minutes there were 3 seeders, 38 leechers. less than an hour later when it finished, there were 40 seeders and 200 leechers. haha. that's great. never got a torrent that was posted just minutes before.... or even to watch it grow like that. wow, it was cool. and that's some growth!!!

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EVERYONE PLEASE USE THE REPLY FEATURE IN THE COMMENT SECTION. this applies to all blogs other than my own. all comments posted on my blog or comments that use "reply to..." are posted in "My Comments" section of my account. i use this feature quite frequently, but it does no good if you do not use "reply to...". the only other way to view reply comments is to go through each comment box of everyone's blog i posted a comment in and check manually. as you know i post lots of comments and that does not work well. so please please, use the "reply to..." feature in all comment boxes. thank you. - jafo.


also... does anyone know why i chose the elements that are included in my southpark character on my page?? anyone who can answer will get 200tbucks...... or a cookie....... or a cd...... or something. the main elements are:: half open eyes and no smile, angel wings and halo, all blue clothes!!! i'm curious if anyone could figure this out.... or remember from my blogs.

update:: 5600 hits. ....."must have more"!!!

alright. really good day. i was off all day yesterday and only have to work 4 hours tonight, and then off all day tomorrow. woohoo. i'm happy. also, it's mostly cause the weather here is just so nice. it's all dark and bleak and dreary. oh yeah. i love this kind of weather. wish it was a bit darker and colder. can't wait for it to get cold enough to start wearing my old sweater. ahh. i love this weather. ok does this sound weird?? who else likes this weather??....................... what is your most favorite type of weather?? include cloud cover, temp, moisture, etc etc. thanks.

hmm, oh yeah. just got word this morning from Roc. his family got some bad news about his brother. can't say what happened but it really wasn't good news. hope he's doin alright. Roc's pretty upset right now. it'll be alright Roc, we both know that God's watchin out for him.

alright. i was supposed to load "keep hope alive" but i found this sound and thought it better for now. i got k.h.a. uploaded. probably cycle it through next. there's just some really good songs in my list right now. how's everyone likin the music?? don't like electro?? want some house or trance or jungle or instrumental, slow, super fast, crazy beats, whatcha want??

yeah. i was also supposed to redo my web site and add some new pics, but thought i should get that new account from 125mb.com. so i went just a while ago, and boy did i have some major problems. now i can't even access the main page. couldn't get my account set up correctly and couldn't find a freakin email address to contact those guys. that site.......... is upsetting me!!!

alrighty. got the new GD cd. funny thing is, that i don't have plans to listen to it right now. i'm on this electro kick so i don't want to listen to punk. hmm, whatever. did the same thing with "1,039/ Smoothed Out Slappy Hours" (GD's first full length album). i got it not too long ago, but still haven't listened to it yet. as it stands right now, i currently have ever single one of their full length albums plus a singles disc. actually i want this little book i once saw... it was the complete biography of their band and each of the members. really hard to find though. was also looking for Tegan and Sara's previous album, but didn't have any luck with that. Best Buy didn't have ANY of their cd's, Curcuit City had only their newest release, Hastings had the album previous to the one i wanted, but nothing newer. dang it. actually i did find a new copy at a local record shop, but only as new, and it's high priced. so now i'm gonna go see if i can find it online somewhere.

anywho, i was just getting on to drop some info. .... waitin to go to work. aarg. i'll catch y'all later. have fun. come back soon for the site update. PEACE!!!

alrighty. what a wonderful day. spent the whole day indoors and away from work. it was so wonderful. restarted "Interview with a Vampire" and once again had to stop before the end. wonder if i'll ever be able to finish that movie. i did a bunch of downloading today. finally got out my case and restarted d/ling series where i had left off. that was fun. but i still haven't kept up with any of them. nearly all the series i'm getting... i've only seen the first ep of. hmm, whatever. when i get a bunch of free time... i'm going to enjoy lots and lots of anime. 8)

had to start up on my program today. was officially threatened my dad yet again last night. it's really really pissing me off. i avoid my project cause it's real work, and spend a lot of time donig other things to try to avoid work, cause work is stressing me out. i haven't done any more than a normal person, but i haven't had a break in a really long time. my weekends dont exsist but just to do more work than the rest of the week. ah, whatever. i'm just tired. so, now that i'm back working on that program, to avoid MY project i decided to do some more tutorials. yeah, i know.... total cop out. but whatever, i'm learning new stuff. so since i've shown you modelling and textures up to this point, i decided to do a small walk through of how to set up basic lighting in a simple scene. actually i got pretty far, but i messed something up and now it's not coming out right. so i stopped for the night. i doubt i can fix what i've already messed up, so i'll probably have to start from the beginning again. sheesh. what a pain.

still going through all those electro songs i got. i keep starting again from the beginning, but skipping to ones i like. i just barely got to 132 tonight. haha, not even half way through. i haven't forgot about it... i am still planning on putting "Keep Hope Alive" up. i hope to have it up tonight or in the morning.

speaking of morning.... green day's newest album comes out tomorrow. oh yeah. can't wait to hear it.

y'all take care and have fun. thanks for all the comments. goodnight.

yippy-skippy. i'm so freakin tired. i just got home from my 12 hour work shift. it was just a big mess. had SO many problems. that's all we do really. just one problem after another. it sucks. i wish it were like old days. we do this, you pay this much. now we got all this extra crap and laws and regulations and politics and crap again. just so much of a waste of time and energy and it really just isn't worth any of it. and with all the problems, we just get yelled at by pissy people who've already had a bad day. it's nothing we did, nothing we can do, yet they still say it's all our problem. we get the raw end of the deal. it just pisses me off. (if you can't tell, work is stressing me out) this is why i told them no more than 20 hours a week. but they STILL aren't listening. dang it. whatever. soon it'll be over and i'll be out of there and doing what i want to do.

i did have fun last night though. got on and talked with D.A. a little bit. i needed to get to sleep cause i had to get up early and work a big day, but it was worth it. D.A.'s a fun girl to talk with. the conversation was completely illiterate due to the late hour. but it's all the more fun that way. 8)

it's late again. i wish i could get on and talk some more with my friends. need to get on and talk with t-wat, and glens, but i don't have the time now. i'll try tomorrow night maybe. i just wanted to get on now and let everyone know what's goin on.

leave lots of comments please. song requests. oh try this:: list all your favorites::
favorite video game??
favorite board game??
favorite card game??
favorite tv show??
favorite book??
favorite web site??
favorite food??

seriously i'd like to get to know all you a little better. D.A., please put your answers again here. thanks. hope to see all you again soon. ja na.

i seem to be having major problems all over the internet. it may just be coincidence, but....

i can't view my own page on tblog.
last night i couldn't see any pic on my blog.
(D.A. could, but i could not)
i can't even get into my photobucket account.
etc etc etc.

so seeing as how i can't even view my own page, it may disturb my blogging abilities till things get back in order. have fun while i'm away.

been thinking about D.A. all day today. boy i feel bad for her. i've checked out the weather channel's website several times today at work. it's just really not lookin good for her. just came into my room. i was checking out the weather channel on tv, and BOY does it look bad. looks like Mobile is gonna get hit the hardest of ANYONE!!! those massive winds and especially those waves. didn't really think about that much here in sunny-dry-no-ponds-anywhe re-TX. but that hurricane is blowing straight up into the bay, and will probably push the water from the bay all up onto land. it's already projected at 50ft. waves. it's very unlikely that any of mobile will survive severe flooding, apart from wind damage. oh and don't forget about those tornadoes spinning off all over the place. they just said there's a projected 12+ tornadoes spun off from Ivan. that's just rediculous. D.A. i prayed for you tonight. i know everything will be alright with you. it just might take a while for you to get back online. 8)

moving on to other news... the new girl was sniffing my book!!! what the heck is up with that, eh?? i just got a pair of "Alice in Wonderland" books that my mother bought for me on ebay. the dude took [b]FOREVER[/b] to get them sent. it's been over 3 weeks since she ordered them. anyways. they came in and they are both pretty old books. so i took the most original one of the two (one has fewer pictures and seems a little "touched up", storywise). well, she picked it up and smelled it. i asked what the heck she was doing and she said that she loved the smell of old books. do old books really have a distinctive smell?? does that smell good?? everyone must remember that i have nearly 0 smelling ability. if you don't know that yet, let me know you don't know and i'll elaborate on that later.

mrs. anime lady finally got those Alien Vs. Preditor movie plushies in. so i got the check from Mr.T. (the assistant boss) last night, then she came over this afternoon and we traded (money for plushies) then after work went over to his house to drop off. well, he never gave me delivery or handling charges. so i think he owes me big time. what do y'all think??

i'm still going through all those techno/electronic songs i had. i downloaded nearly (or over) 300 songs from MP3.com and MP3Now.com back when i was at school in dallas. actually i did it at school. haha. hmm, should have been doing school work, shouldn't i have?? anyways. there's some really cool songs in there that i had forgotten about. i'll try to cycle them through my music section to the left. also while driving i decided i need to keep listening to my electro stuff. so i pulled out Chemical Brothers and Crystal Method. i haven't listened to either of them in a while. wow, there's some good stuff on there too. i need to go buy the new "Singles" (greatest hits) album from chemical brothers. anyways. i heard one song on the Vegas album (by crystal method) tonight. and i really really want to play it for y'all, but i want to wait till D.A. can hear it too. it's really cool. it's called "Keep Hope Alive". totally awesome electro stuff.

anywoo, that's pretty much it for now. i need to go out and do a bit of commenting. but i don't have much time cause i have to be at work at 11 in the morning and i still don't wake up very well. :roll: :roll:

night beautiful people.

ps. i made a mistake. the song to the left is not by GUILT it's GULIT. i'll fix it, but you should know it was wrong if you've already seen it.

oh yeah. i got me some bloggin to do. so lets get to it. hopefully i won't have too many interruptions.

of course, first off. i wish for everyone to pray for deathangel (oooh, that's ominous. :shock:) or D.A. as i call her. she's about to get freakin hit by that big@$$ muther sucker called "Ivan the Horrible". i'm not worried for her, i just don't want her to be. :wink: if you don't pray, fine, do whatever it is you do:: burn incense, yogo, sacrifice a few dogs, i don't care, whatever.

k, also, kayoko has been have a bad start at school, so go give her a hug why don't ya??



now for ME!!! wow, where do i freakin start?? how about this computer bit?? i reformatted the sucker several days ago. i wasn't really smart when i did it, and i got a crap load of spyware instantaniously. i went to 2 trusted websites, and got 30++ spyware all over my machine. my printer stopped working, my internet was doing all kinds of weird stuff. it just all around pissed me off. since i had just barely started i decided to just reformat the dang thing all over again. that was saturday night, i believe. this time i unhooked my internet cable and loaded as much as i could before even plugging the cable back in. also, made sure i was behind some firewall first. then i plugged it in, and before i opened stupid "internet explorer" i updated ALL my virus/spyware programs:: Nortons Systemworks (Antivirus, Utilities, CleanSweep, etc), Webroot's SpySweeper, and Spybot's Search and Destroy. [pause] (dad came in and needs help fixing his computer. his is so messed up it won't let him do ANYTHING. seriously, it won't let him , or run certain programs, load any programs, nothing. really bad stuff) k, so, i updated all that stuff, then turned on every single filter and protection i could find. so far it's been running pretty well. hope i don't get any more problems like that. strange thing is, that i spent less time on it this time and i loaded more programs (including my animation program that i'm supposed to be working on for school:: 3DMax), and yet every thing is so much better than before. whatever. at least it's fine now.

work has been working me over 20 hours every week for the past few months. ever since i told them that i wanted to work only [pause] (brother came in, just wants to freakin talk) [stop] (dad came in. ended up talking with him and my bro about microsoft, apple, and all things computers) (so i copied it all to wordpad, and went and did my stuff that i needed to do. now that i'm back, everyone's in bed so i shouldn't get interupted again. now you know why i write late at night. i hate getting interupted, and i don't like people looking over my shoulder reading what i'm writing, especially my family reading my blog, and especially my comments to other people) k, so now where was i?? ok, so ever since i told them i only wanted to work 20 hours max each week, i've only done that maybe twice. hmm, whatever. i just started my insurance stuff, so i'm getting a lot smaller check, but i'm also getting a lot less quality time to work on my school stuff. (but yeah, mostly it's procrastination) :P

i got the freakin weekend off finally last week. Roc finally called me for the first time since my birthday. whatever. he called me real early saturday morning, met at the freakin dairy queen, supposedly for lunch. sheesh, i wasn't even awake enough to know the difference between lunch and breakfast. :shock: went and saw Resident Evil 2: Apocalypse. freakin awesome. i loved it. i am of course i huge fan of the games. i just barely started with the re-release of the first game on the Nintendo Gamecube, but i'm fell in love with it and have been working on buying all subsequent games. it's a little upsetting that they redid the graphics and stuff for the first one, and kept that quality for the Nintendo exclusive "Resident Evil: Zero", but then went back to the OLD original Playstation graphics for # 2, 3, and Code: Veronica. whatever. it's still really awesome. i so can't wait for # 4. i [pause] (go find info on RE4, also finds info on DOA:U) i believe that RE4 is exclusive to Nintendo, not sure though. don't matter. still super awesome. but i have to go in order. i haven't played enough of RE3 yet and i don't even own RE:Code Veronica yet. so i have to do that before i can get RE4. hopefully by the time i get to it, it'll be a LITTLE cheaper. Back to the movie. the movie was way awesome. i really enjoyed it. i really enjoyed the first too, but the this one was much better. i liked the story on the first better, cause it was new and seperate from any of the games, but sort of still based on them. none of the characters in the first movie were in any of the games. but the new movie in VERY much based on the game and has MANY numerous pieces of the games in it. specifically "Nemisis" and "Jill". also, Jill's outfit comes from RE3 (she was originally "the girl" in the first game opposite "Chris"), and Carlos is also from RE3. his comrades have the same names as well. several of the screen shots in the movie come straight from the game. YEAH!!! as far as "Alice" (Milla Jovavich) supposedly they are going to mention her character in the new RE4. i'm curious how the hell they're gonna do that. i think it's just a rumor. oh oh, the part at the end of the movie, what they do with the city, that's also from RE3. FYI, the "lickers" the big nasty guy at the end of the first movie, and the creatures in the chapel in movie #2, they're from RE2 (only). i love that series so much. :twisted:

boy that's a lot, i still have lots to write, but i'll wrap up for now. the "boyfriend" of the new girl came in yesterday. she came at 3 and i was there at 4, so i just barely missed him. what luck, eh?? hehe.

right now, i'm on this huge electronic music kick. so i went and pulled out my mp3 cds. a giant collection of free electronic music i got off some web site back in dallas. i haven't listened to any of it in about 2-3 years. there's some pretty cool stuff here. if i can find a few really good ones i'll see about cycling them through my music section. what do you think?? or would you rather want something more main stream?? or no electro at all?? this is your time to speak up and cast your vote. if you have requests, let me know.

NIGHT Y'ALL. jafo.



ps. hopefully now that i actually wrote out a blog i can get a bit more hits. maybe??

pps. (ha, i have so much to write i just can't seem to get off. :roll:) i had to re-start my wordpad document to continue where i left off half way through this blog. i've been keeping a "Document" on my desktop that i copy all my recent blogs to so that if tblog goes crappy i won't loose all that stuff i wrote. especially with a blog THIS big. i also put other info i want to blog about in there too. i have no idea why i'll telling you this, but FYI.

:edit: prime example of why the internet is pissing me off. i tried using the little question mark "smiley" things, and instead it use the "confused" smiley face. AAAAHHH!!! why won't the internet freakin work for me this week??

09.14.04 (10:17 pm)   [edit]

update:: 5368 hits. :( i'm falling behind.

so, i have even MORE to write about, but still don't have the time. i will try my hardest to write at least some of it tomorrow (during the day/ before work) otherwise i'll just have too much to write. :D

gudnite, my popples.

yup, i'm tired, i'm about to go to work AGAIN!!! pretty much missed my entire weekend. spent a little time with Roc and Trin, but the rest of the time i was working on my piece of crap computer.

i've got lots more to write about, but i still don't have the time yet. i gotta run. i'll post a biggun later. ja na.

seriously. how many times did i tell y'all that i would have problems with formatting my computer?? no, seriously... how many?? LOTS!!! well, golly, lookie here. i got me some real frucked up problems now. somehow while downloading progams off the interent (from reliable web sites) and AFTER i installed nortons and spysweeper, i managed to get a really really nasty spyware. i've been doing 5++ sweeps every day for the past several days using nortons, spysweeper and this really awesome program called "search and destroy" (HIGHLY recommended) (i repeat HIGHLY recommended). so i've been doing these searches several times.... why?? cause it can seem to completely delete it, or prevent it or protect me or whatever. i do searches, it finds stuff. i delete it, then later the same day it comes back. so somethin is REALLY messed up with my comp. i seriously think i need to start from scratch AGAIN!!! i know of no other alternative, seeing as how top name programs cant seem to fix it. hopefully if nothing else, either it just won't happen next time, or these nifty programs might be able to PREVENT IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!! AAAAHH!!!!!!! so anyways. i've been havin LOTS of fun with this. and needless to say, despite the time and effort i've been putting into this, i'm still getting griped at by my parents (father) and NOW my own brother. he's pissed cause he wants to install my $500 program on his own computer just so he can piddle around with it, cause he's learning a little bit of "animation" in some crappy class he's taking in school. SHEESH!!! he's completely pissing me off. just leave the hell alone for a while why don't you. aaargh.

a nice way to end a lovely week is to find that the really cute new girl is indeed hooked up with a guy already. well, that's the most she's told me, but she IS wearing a rather lovely sparkling ring on her left "ring" finger. ugh, yet again, proof that things are just completely out of my grasp. i wish i had stretchy arms like Dhalshim from Street Fighter, but whatever, it don't matter now. i'm just glad that i played it cool and didn't make a fool out of myself, like i've done so many times before.

ok, so here's the scoop. my computer is barely working, and my fathers computer is pretty much fritz city. so if i format this thing again, and run into yet more problems, i will most likely be absent from tblog for a few days. this place and all you wonderful people are very important to me, but my family doesn't see it that way and could have dire consequences to myself if i spend any length of time online (anywhere for whatever reason) apart from doing my school work. thus i must make that a priority for a while over important stress relieving conversation time with my special friends. i mean "special" friends. :twisted:

just now my brother brought me a letter. he always writes letters or notes to people when ever he wants to say something to them, but doesn't want to speak to them directly. it really quite awkward. anyways. he was explaining how he just realized how much of a butthead he has been to me. and he asks that i be more patient with him. of course he does NOT state that he will try harder not to be a butthead to me. only that i be more patient WITH HIM!!!! uh, yeah. whatever. i really can't take much more of this. i am very much a pretty peaceful guy. i resolve LOTS of conflicts and sore/sour feelings, just with nice polite conversation. but my brother..... he REALLY knows how to piss me off. he knows exactly what to say and do to make me raise my fists. he can piss me off so fast that i don't even have the time to think about what i'm doing before i'm throwing punches at him. and like i said, i've held back in MANY situations that other people just couldn't handle. whatever. i need to leave it alone. i'll only encite myself if i keep talking about it.

goodnight ladies and gentleman, i wish to see you shortly. adeu.

yippey, skippy. :P i got another day off. 'course i spend it goofing off. i thought i deserved a little break. r'n'r. piddled around on my computer. went shoppin (or in texas:: choppin'). then ended up at church. none of my close friends were there. just "the girl", another couple girls that i don't see or talk to much, and 2 brothers of one of the "other" girls. well, that's didn't do me much good. so i left right after and went to work to check on the new girl there. made sure she was able to do what she was just barely taught. then made sure she got to her TRUCK alright. (small girl, big truck) :roll: i noticed she wears 2 rings, which could be considered a Promise ring and and Engagement ring. that sucks. so i'm playin it cool and trying not to get envolved. sheesh, why can't i get an easy break and get hooked up with a nice girl?? i mean statistics-wise, it really shouldn't be this hard. so what i did was walk out with the assistant boss, while she went to the back to clockout, and carried on a casual conversation, then got on my cell phone and talked with a friend till she came out. then "mindlessly" watched her to her TRUCK, while nonchalantly talking on my cell. i have a problem with girls walking alone at night. especially in dark parking lots and bad neighborhoods like that. so she drove off and i went to my friends house and hung out for a bit since he wasn't feeling well enough to attend church. now i am home and blogging. then i much watch my newly d/l'ed naruto eps. 98-99. i couldn't d/l anymore till i formatted my comp. i'm SO glad that's over. sheesh. i still have a few more programs to install, including 3d Max. "then it's all downhill from there".

'night you wonderous peoples. sleep well, and enjoy tomorrow. (and today)

i'll give updates and details later. (hopefully tomorrow)

it's been one week since my last post. i miss all my adorable fans. yes i said that correctly. sorry i kept y'all waiting. as i've mentioned it was one REALLY busy, hectic, screwed up week at work. i had the ENTIRE day off yesterday and practically didn't know what to do. actually there were LOTS of things to do, i just didn't know where to start. i had fun.

the past week, i got up, watched tv for about an hour, got ready for work, went to work, came home, went to bed, repeated for 7 days. i only watched tv to help me wake up. i am so not a morning person. saturday and sunday i had to leave early so no tv those days.

sunday night after work, my parents took me out to eat, then rented a movie. Hollywood Homicide. i wasn't impressed. it had a FEW good parts, but that hip-hop crap pisses me off. i didn't like it when i was in school, and i HATED it when i moved to ghetto land in dallas. technically i wasn't in ghetto land, but i was right on the border and i heard and saw enough of it to aggrivate the hell out of me. *breathes* sorry, i'm calm now. anyways, i didn't really enjoy it. :roll:

i've been gone for so long and haven't checked a single persons blog. i have so much catching up to do. please be patient till i get to your page. then you shall have lots of comments. but before that i have to format my computer like i've been planning to do for over a month. :shock:

take care and enjoy your day. ja na.

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