thanks everyone. you guys are awesome. i wasn't expecting much for my birthday, and i was hoping to keep it that way. i don't ever consider it special. i just like having the opportunity to spend time with my friends. that's all i've ever wanted on my birthday. (except that one year when i really wanted a sword) :) thanks guys. really. it means a lot to me to hear that. i really hate announcing my birthday, seriously. i would rather people just know or remember and come say, "hey happy birthday", oh, thanks for remembering. instead of HEY EVERYBODY IT'S MY BIRTHDAY, "oh, yeah, well, congradualtions." whatever. i really have issues with my birthday every year. i never feel old, i never feel bigger or special. hope someday, i'll just get over it all. but thank you all anyways. you guys are super special.

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i'm very tired. i was called in early today. then i saw my schedule and i'm scheduled early for the next several days. 4Hrs Mon, 9Hrs Tue-Fri, 12Hrs Sat, 8Hrs Sun. sheesh, what a week this'll be. and it just barely started. hope you all are doing better than i. i shouldn't complain. it'll be over soon, and i'll get a nice big check to spend on anime. :P

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everyone, please welcome MrT (the assistant boss) currently known as "red herring" and aniTina. this is their first time to visit my blog and i just wanted to give them a good welcome. if neither of you plan to stay.... i hope you enjoyed your stay, come again any time. if you DO decide to stay.... please forgive the mess, both online and in my head. thank you very much.

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one last interesting piece of information. we will be shifting out the current help that was called in to cover for me while on vacation with a brand new certified assistant. this will be her first time working in THIS industry, but with big plans for the future. did i mention, she isn't unsightly. :P on a similar note.... sunday i recieved a hug from the girl involved in the "incident" that i have mentioned before. and it was the first time since the "incident". i forced it to be short, but it was still relieving. hope this will harbenger a time for me to relax a little...... FINALLY!!!! and boy do i need to relax a bit.


goodnight all you absolutely wonderful people. i'll see y'all again soon. remember to enjoy life and have fun.

keep hope alive. jafo.

Happy Birthday to ME!!
Happy Birthday to ME!!
Hey Look everyday, it's my birthday.
Happy Birthday to ME!!

actually it was yesterday but who gives a crap. A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT'S WHO!!!! alright alright. i didn't have a great birthday yet again. that's right. it is rare for me to have a HAPPY birthday. nearly every year on the day of my celebration i get sick. nauseated, stuck in bed and frequent John. well, it wasn't the worst, but it wasn't very pleasant. i no longer have high hopes for my birthday, but i never hope for a BAD day. well, i didn't plan anything and "told" my parents not to either, which of course they didn't (and looking back:: thankfully). in the late morning i got breakfast (not in bed, but i wouldn't want that), then Roc and Trin came over and we had lunch. i had plans to spend time with them afterwards, but just wasn't feeling well enough, so they left and i stayed at home in my room watching an old movie for the 100th time. oh, it was just so much fun. NOT!!! *blah* that sucked.

well, i am nearly set for formatting my computer. hopefully i'll have it all set and begin tomorrow. i will post notice here when i do. keep your fingers crossed for me please. i always have bad luck doing this.

night y'all. have a great day. be good. jafo.

thanks everyone for leaving comments and scribbling in my shoutbox. it makes me feel much better. i had an unfriendly day. went to pick up my grandmother way out of town. spent 6 hours away from home, and didn't enjoy a single minute. got home, finished my movie, and knocked over my precious Phoenix statue. dang it, i just got her and i bang it up. so upsetting. well, i get online and read all my fan mail. it makes me happy again. thanks guys. you're all great. free hugs for everyone.

fyi, complamentary hugs at the door for anyone, everyday. no purchase necissary. guaranteed soothing effect or additions hugs at no charge. (yes, roc, even you.)

also, a special request for a lazy person... if you wish to reply to a comment of mine (especially if not on my own blog), please use the reply feature located at the bottom of the comment you wish to reply to, so that i will get notice that you are making fun of me, i mean, talking to me. :)

thanks everyone. love you all. have a goodnight.

k, so i might as well explain this to the whole class, so listen up...

i'm testing you. that's right. it is true that i have tested every one of my friends at some time or another, and continue to do so. i test you to find out more about you. to learn how you think, what you are thinking, how you feel, and how you react, and much more. this quirk started a long time ago. when i was young i was labelled a lot of things. it made me reflect upon myself and determine if i really was what those kids said about me. (no, they were just bullies) this began my ever consuming introspective behavior. this immediately stemmed the need to reflect upon my friends. where they the things that other kids said about them?? (no, just more bullies) this then led to the question:: why would those kids say things about someone else that wasn't true?? answer:: they had problems of their own. this answer came because i "tested" the bullies. i sat back and observed the things they did, both on their free time, and when they were "busy". i also asked them questions about why they said false things and what motivated them to pick on my friends. this was a startelling revolation for me. i began to learn that by observing, asking, and "testing" i could define a person and their character. i could narrow down their motivations, likes/dislikes, and true personallity. this of course is helpful in determining who a person truely is, what they truely want, what their limits are, what it takes to motivate them, what the consequenses/results are of saying/doing something, how i can get a person to do what i want, etc etc. very useful information. like i said earlier, i started this many years ago, and has become second nature. i no longer consiously "test" anyone. it is just a ........... ............. reflex (if you will). at times, if not checked, it can be quite damaging. i could test someone's limits and overstep lines. (right Trin??) some have noticed this and some have not, yet. i always try to be gentle, smooth and subtle, but some data can't be collected without a little aggresiveness. this also is a bad thing. i apologize to everyone who has experience this, and will experience it. but now you know more of the truth. this is a LARGE part of it/me. this and my whole double thinking, dreamy mind thing makes up the majority of me and my personality.

thanks for listening. hope you enjoyed that. leave comments. if you have questions please don't be afraid to ask. i constantly am trying to NOT be an A-hole, and your questions will help me in my progress. thank you very much.
8) 8) 8)


goodnight. jafo.

yeah, so i was planning on writing tons of comments a few days ago. and you know how wonderful my comments are :shock: and well, NONE of them were posted. so now it's 4 days later and of course i forgot those wonderful things i was going to say, and i just don't have the desire to go back and do it all again. so if you were going to get a comment or are still expecting one, sorry. i'm exhausted. if you want a comment let me know. i'm more than happy to help, but my self motivated commentation is over. "come and get your own", so to speak. have a goodnight.


**IMPORTANT**
if i posted on your blog and it came up twice... PLEASE delete one of them. it really annoys me to have TWO of my completely useless dribble placed for public consumption. thank you and goodnight.

so i'm bored and lonely and it's late. the story of my life. :?

i'm bored of the work i'm doing. i've had little contact with my friends (including tblog). i have much much work to do that will take away all the rest of my free time for quite some time to come. it's nearly one in the morning. i'm much ready for bed. i can go to sleep yet. i've been questioning myself for quite some time now and can't come to a desent answer. i've tested all my friends and feel like an ass for doing so, but have come to the conclusion that they are all good friends despite me. i.... i.... i just don't know anymore. i've thoroughly exhausted all my knowledge and all my "wisdom" is for crap. i wonder what is left of me??

i had an extremely good question earlier, but have since forgotten it. this is now what you get.

good night everyone. sleep well. i miss you all, always.

blah blah blah. yeah, i haven't left, i just didn't feel up to dealing with tblog and shoutbox, and this and that. just hasn't been a good enough week to handle things. it is pretty hard to come off 2-3 weeks vacation and have to work 40 hours. especially when i'm not used to doing more than 20. then i got my parents still breathing down my neck about my whole school business and whatnot. oh yeah, CHECK THIS!! the store when "paperless" so i no longer get a check, i don't even get a deposit slip. if i want one i have to print it off the internet. that's the most bogus crap i've heard in a LONG time. well, lo and behold, i checked my bank account and my last pay check was a whopping $2.50, yes that reads TWO DOLLARS AND FIFTY CENTS!!! hmm, so i have to go have a talk with a few select ladies. they inform me i didn't start out with much, i only had 8 hours of work time that week, and then my insurance DOUBLED my fee for that week. ................. .......... ........... .......... ........... WHAT!!!??? that makes no sense to me. how about y'all?? those wonderful ladies called up the stupid buttheads and confirmed. hopefully i can get a refund off of it. (there are a few other factors considered into effect, like my 2 weeks vacation time that they didn't bill me on and what not) well, now i got a whole $40 to last me till my NEXT check. then i have $70 in bills to finish off this month. actually the ONE thing that upsets me most this whole month is that i STILL haven't gotten my best friends anniversary present. i know i don't HAVE to, but that's just what you do for your FRIENDS!!! and i have the greatest present too. 8) 8) 8)

other than all that, it's been a pretty boring week. :roll: :roll:

uh yeah, tblog is taking a big crap right now. i'd be lucky if this blog actualy gets posted with no problems. so once it all gets straightened out i'll get back to that think i love doing..... POSTING COMMENTS!!! :twisted:

also, ' ' case you didn't notice, shoutbox is screwed up too. all this is raising my stress levels so i'm going to go away for a little bit. if by tomorrow it's ALL fixed i've got some blogging to do, if not, we'll see how not bad of a mood i'm in. :twisted: :twisted:

BIG PROPS to lady koocb. she's been through quite a lot, and i have never seen her rant or complain EVER on her blog, since the first day she set it up. she deserves a lot of respect and praise for that.

here is a reply comment i made on her blog::

[complaining about life is]
contagious, yes. i DO enjoy life, just so very little of it. so many times is makes me upset. i've tried to just slip it off, but i've learned i'm true pessimistic. i've also tried to change that, but eventually gave that up as well. thus i know there are times that i'm just truely at a loss to enjoy so much more. this is a choice i've made, and i must be willing to accept the consequences. but to help me deal with it, i've learned to enjoy every LITTLE thing to the fullest of my ability. i find little things much more enjoyable than overall experinces. but for those that enjoy life exclusively, and can truely be happy, and live a "grand" life without being overcome by the daily life........., i truely respect them. they are much more deserving than i. i just gave up. they deserve all the happiness they are given.

enjoy life, koocb, you deserve it. :)
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i found this online some where and thought i'd share it with you. i really like alice in wonderland, and am especially drawn to the mad hatter.

""One important use of mercury compounds was in hatmaking; 200 years ago, the furs used to make beaver felt hats was dipped into mercury(II) nitrate solution as a preservative and to soften the animal hairs. Unfortunately the workers in the felt hat trade absorbed mercury through their skins; the resulting mercury poisoning caused shaking and slurred speech, being known as "hatter's disease", which is believed to have inspired the character of the Mad Hatter in Lewis Carroll's Alice in Wonderland, a character made famous in Tenniel's drawing."" ~ ~ intersting, huh??

also i found a site where all the staff was depicted as a character from wonderland, and given a psuedo sub-title respectively. the overall "lead" (or whatever her official title was) was given the character - evil queen of hearts. quite humorous, i thought.

goodnight people. see y'all tomorrow.

alright. first things first. Mr. T (the "assistant" boss) :roll: ....
found this blog, stupid stupid me, well now he's bound and determined to read and post comments. beware of him, he is a trickly little devil. he's sneaky, thinks he's SOOOO clever, and has an evil way about him. well, welcome to MY REALM!!!! if you're reading this..... FUCK YOU!! :twisted: :twisted: :twisted: have all the fun you want, but you mess with me in my world, your whole exsistance will be erased. not only here, but everywhere, cause.... well.... i know people. :shock: :shock: :shock: :!:

to everyone else, beware of the little devil and his tricky, underhanded ways. also he will probably go by the name "Red Herring"!!!! what the hell kind of name is that!!! i get the whole "searching for a red herring" bit of crap, but still, what the hell mate??!! alright. i was just trying to get this up before butthead made it home and started messing around with this. besides, i'll see him tomorrow. :twisted: :twisted: :twisted: :twisted: :twisted:

alright D.A. that was just disturbing. but now you have started a flash contest. no, no, not FLASHING contest (which i probably wouldn't mind) but a FLASH contest. i went and found an old website and stole a few of their flash files. BEAT THIS!!!

Jafo's Flash Page

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i feel much better now, thank you. i settled down a bit, eat some fresh homemade brownies, listened to a bit of heavy techno music, and played with flash files. ah, the simple joys of life. now, i'm tired, bored and lonely. hmm, just can't win them all!!!

sorry people. i had a crappy day. work is pissing me off. more specifically, my boss's last day was today, and he definately wasn't going to put up with crap today, so he threw more tantrums again. ah, what a wonderful place to work. apart from work, i've been just basically having a pissy good time. things not going right, not having time to have fun, family getting on my last nerve, etc etc. i can't even type a logical sentence to suit my age. i've been posting blogs and comments like i'm a freakin 12 year old. that just pisses me off more.

yup yup. sorry for bothering your people with all that. but i feel slightly better now. need to take a bit of time and watch some anime, play some realy loud freakin music, and just chill. anybody want to join me??

welp, i changed my music again. now you are listening to a edited clip from an episode of "Neurotically Yours". a special new internet cartoon. i thoroughly enjoyed most of their episodes, although it is not for the general mass. please listen to it, and comment. did you like it, not like it........ plan to raid my house for suggesting you even consider listening to this filth, just whatever you had on your mind.


:arrow: AT THIS MOMENT WHAT ARE YOU THINKING??

thank you goodnight.

alright. so i got up at 6:30 AM. don't really know how that was possible. i got to work and the girl was on the phone talking to the man in who knows what city. he told her that we were supposed to have gotten an email. she said we had not. she checked again. it was under an address we have not used since the store had been moved long before i got there. 20+ pages. first thing i found out was that it didn't replace our REALLY old and primary computer, it replaces the newer, secondary computer. so i had to disconnect everything i had already hooked up last night (to prepare), and move everything over to the other side of the counter. strangely this relieved me because the OLD computer had the tape backup and backup power supply that wouldn't be able to be put into the new comp. anyways, we (I, and I only) unplugged the replacement comp, and shoved it aside, set up the new one, then found out that i was supposed to "backup" certain files before i had done so. so back the replacement comp goes. got it hooked up again, then "backed up" the files which only printed one page of 5 fax numbers which we don't even use. AARGGHH!!! hook up the new comp again, boot from a crappy diskette, and go through stupid prompts. finally got finished then had to "restore" those idiotic backup files. *BLAH* then start another program which installs the necissary program that is used in our store. but at the same time erases all the cool functions that came with the new comp....... like solitare, dvd player, etc etc. (well, what else is there really??). whatever, way past the time it was SUPPOSED to be done (which is when the store "opens") we (just me) got it all working.

during this time i was informed that it was supposed to be done by some professional dude that was supposed to come friday but never did, then left on vacation that week, which left it in the trusted hands of people who don't even know how to turn a computer on. thus, the reason i was procured for the job.

after i got it up and running, the phone rang and the new temp girl who is supposed to be covering for the other morning girl who is on vacation called in and said she would be late. she was at the courthouse and wouldn't get there till 11. AARRGHH!! so i stayed till 11, in jeans and a dirty tee, and sweaty and smelly. i knew i was going to be working and getting smelly so i didn't bother taking a shower before i went it. of course i didn't count on actually having to WORK!!!! bloody hell.

on top of all that. the cutest customer we have will be leaving us. she is moving to new york. BLOODY HELL!!! D.A., Kayoko, please come to our store, i new nice, cute girls to help. i'm tired of helping grumpy OLD hags with hearing problems, "oldtimes", depression, AND advanced anxiety. please put me out of my misery!!!

so, i'm home now and find my best friend want to come over to my house in the middle of the night and slit my throat for a little "misunderstanding".
:D :roll:

night you wonderful people.

aaah. what a wonderful day.

this blog is dedicated to my friend ROC!!

:arrow: [b]LET IT BE KNOWN THAT TRIN IS NOT "MY GIRL". NEVER WAS, NEVER WILL BE. SHE IS MY "FRIEND". IF ANYONE IS UNCLEAR ON THAT LET ME KNOW......[/b]

.....or read my old blogs, specifically the ones where i repeatedly insulted her numerous times. that should help set you straight you bunch of FREAKS!!!!

:!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!:

NOT ONLY do my three favorite girls sign my shoutbox right away. they also comment on my lastest blog.
I FEEL SO SPECIAL
:D :D :D

so where is the boy!!?? ah, i won't blame him for not showing up. he's just not as connected as most people are. but i love him for that anyways. he's a great guy. ..........uhm. haven't heard from Koocb in a while either. she seems really busy. it would be nice to have had yet another girl grace the page of jafo. yet i am still very content with what i have.
:D :D :D

this seether song is getting on my nerves. i really gotta change it soon. i just need to find the time. also, the new add a blog........ i don't like it. i don't need all those:: bold, underline, strikethrough, change color, change size, change this, change that. just let me freakin type already. although, i have been abusing the smileys lately. i've put them at the end of nearly every sentence or paragraph. it's starting to annoy ME!!! (see, right just then, i was looking for a smiley with his toungue out.) geez, i really just need to leave them alone for a while. i mean smileys have family too you know.

have a great day people. and a good night.

i changed up the left side of my page a bit. let me know what you think. i cleaned up the code a hell of a lot, and added that spiffy new shoutbox. don't know how well that things going to go. i guess we'll find out.

send me your thoughts, ideas, comments, and critiques.

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worked yesterday for 12 hours (open to close), then worked today for 8 (open to close), didn't get a break or lunch time either day (can't cause there's no one to relieve me). then i'm going in to help out at 7 AM tomorrow (*6 hours from now*). i'm really tired. i'll write more later.

requests for music will be closing again soon.

goodnight.

*AHEM* sorry for the wait. but NOTHING has been going on this week. so there's nothing new to report, so i quess i'll start my trip story. i'll try not to bore y'all too much. :D

FLCL. because of the various ways that is can be pronounced, everyone that i know just calls it f.l.c.l.. i have heard it called furi kuri, and fooly cooly before. i have never heard it called fudi kudi until yesterday.

music will be changed again soon. time for requests.

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Friday night, July 23rd 2004, 4PM, we FINALLY leave town. this trip is planned for 2 weeks and the goal is to help my grandmother have a garage sale. my whole family went: my mother, father, 16yr old brother, and of course yours truely.
:D :) :twisted: 8)

we drove straight through the night on friday. i drove from about midnight to 4. it was REALLY rough. i was already a little sleepy, and the family was asleep so i had no one to talk to and i couldn't play my music. then it started raining REALLY hard. i had about 10 foot visibility at one point.

we ended up at my uncle's place outside of chicago saturday about 8 PM. (Crown Point, Indiana) we stayed there for 4 nights. Sunday we all got up early and went into town.

First stop:: CHINATOWN. way cool. we got lunch there, i bought several (small) statues, and had our picture taken next to our respective zidoac animal. (i am:: DOG) then we got on the EL train, it turned into a subway. WOOHOO!!! stopped and walked/shopped along Michigan Ave. it's THE biggest shopping street in all of chicago. Sak 5th Ave, etc etc. we saw a bunch of street performers (and magicians) on the sidewalks. my mother stopped at several places. Saks was inside a 9 story "plaza" called "Chicago Place". so the rest of us split up and looked around. i went to the "Eastern Deco" furniture and gallery stores, and this small gallery called "Toscano" (my boss told me that he knew this place after i got back). it was a pretty cool place. the food court at the top had "Seattle's Best" coffee. oh yeah, that was the best mocha i've EVER had. we then walked down to the Hancock building. it's over 100 stories tall, and has a great view of the lake front and "uptown".

we left all that and went to Giordano's for dinner. OH!!! so great! probably the best pizza i've ever had. it's really weird style. it's really tall, they put the toppings on first, then LOTS of chees, then another layer of dough, then a bunch of sauce. it's so big that you have to eat it with a fork and cut SMALL pieces (cause each piece is so tall). yum yum. good stuff.

Day Two:: went and saw my uncles old place (above a barber shop) in chicago proper, then drove around the Museum of Science and Industry, and headed to the Shed Aquarium. spent a lot of time there. it a big place. i enjoyed it. then went to the Sear Tower. that's such a big building. (it was the biggest till a few years ago, now it's somewhere in the orient. but that's alright, the new trade center building will definately beat that) it had a great view of all of downtown, but i personally liked the hancock building better. from there we walked to the train and rode the LOOP, and part of the EL that gets real close to buildings. that was fun (and kinda scary). it was late by then so we drove around (and under) town.

Day Three (tuesday):: left chicago and went to a "Dog and Suds" drive in restuarant. my dad was going NUTS after this place. (took an extra 200 miles) we stopped there on our way to grandmother's house in Saginaw, Michigan.

That's all for now, and that was the best part of the whole trip too. i'll fill you in on the rest of it later (and i'll be brief too. i won't bore you with details).

night night.

to honor the person whom i stole this from (haha that's funny) i will keep this in her same style. thanks deathangel.

+About Me+
Sex: Male
Status: as if is wasn't obvious, i'm single
Sign: "Do Not Enter" I mean Virgo
(Chinese zodiac: dog)
(hehe, not a good combination)
B'Day: Aug 28, '82
Grade: failed graduate :cry:
Skool: previously, Art Institute of Dallas
Place: Texas (350 miles from dallas)
Car: '91 Honda Accord aka beater
Cats: 1
Dogs: 1
AIM: jafo187
Yahoo: jafofred187
MSN: jafofred187

+At the Mo+
Actor: Tony Shalhoub
Actress: Milla Jovovich
Movie: Resident Evil 2
Singer: Gwen Stefani (Rossdale)
Band: No Doubt
Song: 'Enjoy' and all others on:: "Post" by Bjork
Anime: NARUTO!!!
Game: Idiots Delight (seriously. aka Aces High)
Drink: BIG RED
Nails: black would be nice

+Anime+
NARUTO!!!
FLCL
Evangelion
Cowboy Bebop
(the rest in no particular order)
Trigun
Spirited Away
Nadesico
Boogiepop Phantom
Tenchi
Inuyasha
Gunsmith Cats
Perfect Blue
Lain
(Bit Torrent files below)
HunterxHunter
Samurai Champloo
Peace Maker Kurogane
Midori no Hibi
Rizelmine
Battle Programmer Shirase

**pic of "Jafo" removed 08-08-04**
(see Jafo's Pic Page #4)
me - Jafo

special pic for you people who care so much about me!!
whatever...

also, after this blog, i'm going to pos a 4th page of pix. check it out.

alright. you people aren't even trying. i gave like a whole bunch of blogs, and a butt-load of questions. what do i get?? 3 comments in a whole 2 weeks time.

THANK YOU TO:: TRIN & DEATHANGEL

answers::
"in this style 10/6" - card in mad hatters hat from alice in wonderland
"Eyebrows? What about....eyebrows?" - FLCL (anime)
Shigeru Miyamoto - creator of donkey kong, mario, star fox, zelda, pikmin and many more.
"Castle" - a move performed in chess
Phoenix - the entity that possess Jean Grey
Pong - the first EVER "video" game
Charles Shultz - creater of Peanuts comic strip
Green Day - my favorite band
"Leeloo Dallas. Multipass." - Milla Jovavich as Leeloo in "Fifth Element"
"And really bad eggs." - Johnny Depp as Captain Jack Sparrow in "Pirates of the Caribbean"
"You're not Superman, you know." - Aunt May in "Spiderman"
"This isn't real?" - Keanu Reeves as Neo/Mr. Anderson in "The Matrix"

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Seether
"Fine Again"

It seems like every day's the same and I'm left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is grey and there's no color to behold
They say it's over and I'm fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober, feels like I'm dying here

And I am aware now of how everything's gonna be fine, one day
Too late, I'm in hell
And I'm prepared now it seems everythings gonna be fine, one day
Too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire and there's no-one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar 'cause I can't seem to get this through
You say it's over - I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober, I'm dying here

And I am aware now of how everything's gonna be fine, one day
Too late, I'm in hell
And I'm prepared now it seems everythings gonna be fine, one day
Too late, just as well

And I'm not scared now
I must assure you, you're never gonna get away
And I'm not scared now
And I'm not scared now

And I am aware now of how everything's gonna be fine, one day
Too late, I'm in hell
And I'm prepared now it seems everythings gonna be fine, one day
Too late, just as well