i haven't been here in a while, and i'm so tired right now, but i guess you might need an update. (to you my friends who i talk to more than i blog. :roll:).

figures: last 28 days, i worked 22, was off 6. if you figure 5 days a week, i should have more than 8 days off. i worked 2 sets of 9 days straight. i was supposed to have a 5 day break after the first 9 days, then work only 7, but i was off only 3, and worked 9. after which i was supposed to have a nice 5 day weekend. the first weekend off in many many months. i will be working 3 of my 5 days off. tomorrow (which is part of the 3) is one of the busiest days in all the industry (and complamentory industry as well). tuesday after both labor day and memorial day are the busiest days in both industries of the intire year. this is a phenomenon that has yet to determined the cause.

i'm tired. it's 11:30, and i just got back from a cook out from a family's house an hour outside of town, who used to go to our church, but have quit coming. .....i am baffeled too.

i have to be at work tomorrow at noon, and will be there till 9, then 3-9 (or something) the day after. i'm already exhausted. i need to take a shower, cut my nails, and relax before i can go to bed. sheesh, i don't want to get up tomorrow.

i really wanted to put of images of the stuff i bought on ebay. they haven't arrived yet, but i bought $210 worth of anime figurines off ebay. my first time ever to be on ebay. it's a very dangerous place. i even limited my self and resisted bidding on about 20 other things i was seriously "looking at".

well, good night all you happy people. please pray for my sanity tomorrow. thank you. GOOD NIGHT!!!!

yeah, i only have 2 more days before my next day off. sheesh, it took a long time. at least sunday night i got to hang out with my friends. went to hastings, taco hell, and at their place (shortly). it was pretty nice.

i finally got to go to my anime shop and pick up my vids i ordered about 2 weeks ago. of course i won't be able to watch them until probably sunday.

mom, spontaneously went out of town. some vacation or something for about 12 of the girls from our church, and a few others too. she was invited by one of her friends, and them two are the only "ladies". so she was pretty stoked about that. now me, my dad and brother have to fend for ourselves. it's so rough. :? i hope she has fun, and enjoys herself.

i have finally got on ebay to find an object that i tried to get from an online store. *short story* the page shows only one pic of the figurine, and no discription at all. i emailed to find the heighth, and they informed me that it came in various colors. i tried emailing them to let me have the color that was shown, but it's been nearly 2 months with no reply. *end short story* i found the figures on ebay, with big pics and full discriptions. i finally got what i want, and i shall never shop with those creeps again. lying buttholes.

anyways, so i need to go finish my business with ebay. ta-ta.

no, not really, but thanks for your input.

it's pretty sad when my life falls apart when my friends leaves town. y'all need vacation as much as me. and definately time away from me. i don't know first hand what it's like not being around me, but i'm sure you need that space after a while. am i right?

k, so ms. lady (didn't say the word i wanted to, Trin) didn't show up today. hopefully she'll be back tomorrow, and no, i doubt now that she's involved in a situation that needed particular meds to keep certain things from happening. i hope.

in a related matter, there was another lovely young lady in front of our store who was sampling free stuff from her company to our customers. i was pretty happy, for a while. when she started to leave i began to make small, helpful comments to her. she was not interested in the least, possibly put off. (i was so subtle she didn't have proof of flirtation, just questionable assumptions, :D) so anyways, i informed the "boss" about her not being receptive and he informed me it could be due to the young man who had helped her set up the stand earlier. uh, duh, should have told me that soon. "didn't know you needed that information", he replied.

i'm starting to feel much better. i have been listening to my 311 cd, and it seems to have a lot of easy listening, positive energy music. very nice, very welcome.

does anyone (all 3 of you :roll:) have any comments on my use of "positive/negative energy"? i can't think of any better term at the moment except maybe "chi" (as used in japan, which basically means "inner energy"), but that doesn't seem to fit any better.

night y'all, i have to get out of here so mr. man can study for his speech tomorrow. later.

well, yesterday was a pretty nice day. i saw a most gorgeous girl in our store today. unfortunately for me i am shy. also we were busy at the time, and as i was behind the glass, she didn't even notice me. man she was pretty.

shortly thereafter another beautiful young lady came to request our services. i was really happy. lucky, she forgot her card, and didn't return before closing, thus i might see her again today. unfortunately i am shy, also i believe she's someone that needs certain medication to keep from being in another particualar situation. how sad.

so my friends were supposed to be back yesterday, but they still haven't commented on my blog, or called. i wouldn't mind initiating the call, but i am busy playing host. oh well, that's what you get for working too much and being so hostpitable.

i'm going to try something out on here next week, whenever i can get some time to do it. i think mr. man will be leaving us monday, so i should be back in my own living quarters then, and having full use of MY computer. well, i gotta go now. things to do before work.

cool. i got my tbucks back, and i didn't even message anybody. also i was blocked from posting for a couple days, and yesterday "my comments" page wouldn't load properly. whatever. it's all good now. also fyi, i've got 1717 hits for my blog. don't know if that's good or bad for how long i've been on. i'm guessing it's higher than Trin's and Roc's, but not as high as C.C.'s.

i hate complaining on my blog. i really do. however you must realize that i am much more pessimistic than optomistic. i do strive for the best and keep hope as much as possible, but i expect very very little from life. my thoery is that this way when it's only a decent day, at least it's higher than i expected. 8)

this is my new complaint or source of negative energy. i was supposed to be off for 5 days, after having worked 9, but they cut it short. i only had 3 days off, and now i work another 9 (straight). this is fairly not a problem. the major source is the "boss" who i work with for 7 days who has more negativity than the customers we deal with. the other "boss" who is a bit of a slacker is much more positive and doesn't make a bad day worse. if y'all know what i mean.

funny stuff. after knowing that i would be coming in today, i told them yesterday that i would prefer the evening shift (of course), but after thinking about it, i decided that i would prefer 10-3 cause there were a few things that were planned for later and also i need to pick up my vids that are supposed to be in, but the store doesn't open till 2. this was all decided after i had gotten home, and after i had called the substitute girl and asked her to come in earlier to switch with me. bummer, now i'm stuck in my own mess. i suppose there's a reason for this, and it's not the end of the world, besides i get more hours in the evening shift. mo money mo money mo money. or something like that.

i still miss my friends. i wish they'd come back. they didn't call me either, how sad. i hope that means they are having fun and staying occupied. also CC hasn't come back, so i hope that means she's still out having a good time, and relaxing.

take care y'all (who ever reads this.). :P

couldn't get on yesterday. got a message saying tblog was down. whatever.

mr man's in town finally. sleeping in my room. actually right now he's on his way to Cali. for i get my room and my bed tonight. yipee.

went playing basketball last night with mr. man and my friend. i don't do too well at sports. have very poor stamina related to reduced lung capacity and "side-stitches". (that defect some people have where you side hurts really really bad usually after a lot of physical exersice)

oh yeah. i randomly lost 100 tbucks. guess i need to go see the man, rocky, about this.

yesterday i got called and now have to work today. in addition to my 7 day stretch coming up saturday. oh bugger.

oh yeah, mr. man's not coming in tonight. i get my bed and my computer for another night. yipee. also the concert wasn't too bad, except the first section which was played by local elementary students, and the last song which was Hymn to Joy which is the extened orchestra version of Ode to Joy. blah. they did however have a few pieces that were pretty cool. one was a long piece of various tidbits from the Pirates of the Carabian movie. pretty cool, very nice piece. also there was an additional piece presented and played by the select serior strings group. they played 3 songs from movies. i'm pretty sure one of them was from Harry Potter.

THE POTTER WHO WAS HAIRY!!!!!!

anyways, i'm home and have food, and shall now continue watching my invader zim dvd.

GOODNIGHT!!!!

ps. i've been decieved into going to pick up mr. man early tomorrow. oh the pain of mornings.

last week (i think) there was a Garfield cartoon where he said: "Mornings should come equipped with dimmer switches." oh yeah.

so my friends are out of town. and my other friend, well, she's taking a break. i'm bored. i really shouldn't be. i should be working on my "project", but that gets boring REALLY fast.

we have a visitor coming tonight (or early tomorrow depending upon flight problems). he'll be staying in my room. i get the lovely couch. i don't mind the couch, but i don't like not being able to get on my computer.

well, now i have to go to an orchestra concert. the last one for my little brother this year. he's not bad, i just don't like orchestra.

this blog was just to help me pass time. it worked, sort of. see y'all tomorrow, maybe. 8)

oh yeah, buy the new invader zim dvd vol. 1. funny stuff.

*actually make this #3 cause it just happened again, this time i copied it before i hit "submit"*

k, this is the second time i wrote this, and it really pisses me off. it took me about a hour last time because i got kicked off-line, which i don't know how that can happen on dsl. i had about 4 other windows open at various places and they all just stopped working. PIECE OF TRASH!!!!!:evil: well, i got pissed so i took a nice long break from it and played some of my new game: Resident Evil 2 for gamecube. so fun!!! yeah. the graphics suck bad, like they didn't fix anything from the original back on the first playstation. that pisses me off cause the #1 remake and #0 were some of the greatest graphics i've ever seen on any game, ever. i found a "rookie" mode that gives me infinate ammo with the biggest guns right from the start. SWEET!!!!!:twisted: well, now i'm back, cause i wanted to write this before i forgot EVERYTHING i said before, but i already have for most of it.

yeah, Trin, you seem to be the least nerdiest of all of us, but i don't know how that happened. :D well, looks like it's official, i'm a nerd. hard core, man. all those years, i thought they were just being mean, guess it's all true cause the quiz says so. :roll:

i visited a few blogs today and they were pretty interesting. hope i can find them again after my FREAKIN COMPUTER kicked me off. :evil:

i feel very detached the past few days. like i'm floating out of my body and it's just acting on stimulus. very weird. can't figure some things out either. regarding the new work setup, the assitant boss (who acts like the real boss, but won't take full responsibility, which the real boss (old man) is williing to give at any time), or other obscure things i've come across recently. it's sort of scary that i can't focus or think like normal, but then again i'm detatched so i don't really care like i think i should.

well, goodnight all. hope you all have a super-tastic day tomorrow.

another morning. :? i've been trying to change my sleeping schedule. i'm going to bed earlier and getting up earlier. i think i'm loosing sleep too. i don't like it right now, but in the end it should be more benificial.

they changed the work schedule on me again. now i'm getting lots more hours. 7 days, 3 days, repeat. hmm, i haven't determined if i like this or not. we'll see.

sometimes we all just need to take a break from certain things. you know who i'm taking to. enjoy yourself for all that you can, for as long as you need. we'll be here whenever you get back.

i got new sunglasses yesterday. my last ones got broke when i was playing basketball with my friends last. as i was leaving i saw a couple movies i really wanted. se la vie. i got "drunken master" with jackie chan (one of his first, the prequel to "legend of the drunken master"). also got the first series of Samurai Jack. i like that show, but i never watch tv that much. it rots my brain, and i'm bad enough with all the anime i download.

uhm, for reference. the anime i download is not illegal. i get them from fan-subbers via the Bit-Torrent program. they are episodes currently or just finished airing on tv in japan. they have not yet been lisenced. once an anime is lisenced, (legal) fan-subbers will remove that series from being downloaded, and request everyone to stop sharing. if you have any questions about anime, fan-subbing, bit-torrent, or anything else, let me know.

i took a few quizes from that "Nette" girl i told you about last time. (she hasn't come back). first quiz was a nerd test based on your name. i got a 74. rasproc, using your real name you got a 42 and your wife got a 19. using our blog names. i got a 65, you got a 20, and your wife got a 4. it's totally unfair. :roll:

next i took a "how old is your inner child" test. i was 10. finally i took a "how would you murder" test. it just gave me a pic and discription, it didn't get me a "result". it said: "Your methods are a bit uncouth but your finesse and sense of style is impeccable." and here's the pic:

(picture removed 5-21-04)

this is just way cool.

Industrious Clock

i hate mornings. let me repeat.... i hate mornings.

it's been storming around here. a lot of lightening, mostly at night when i usually get online to blog. also i've actually been "working". ta-da. i'm here now, let's begin.

i hate mornings. :)

i took those quizes on Trin's site. here's the results:

(picture removed 5-21-04)
You are Neo. You display a perfect fusion of heroism and compassion.

(picture removed 5-21-04)
You are Gambit! You are a fierce fighter and a good friend to have. Your preference for solitude and your attractiveness make you very intriguing to those you meet. Unfortunately, close relationships are few and far between for you because you often have trouble opening up to others.

(picture removed 5-21-04) - obi wan
blah blah blah - i lost this one - something about wise, dependable, respectful, yadda yadda yadda.


i like the neo one the best, both the quiz and the picture. i love the character gambit, and i think obi-wan is pretty cool, too. as far as the truth to the quizes, ask my friends. so my friends, tell people if it's true or not.

i downloaded the trial software, so i have to put up a site before it runs out, else you won't get anything till i find it cheap somewhere. actually none of you have commented so you all must suffer now. :twisted: !!!!!!!!

work is getting weird again. they changed the shedule once again, and now i'm working 7 on, then 4 out of 7, then 7, then repeat. i don't understand how it works or WHY they implemented it. i just want to skip ahead to where i'm already out of school and graduated. anyone have a time machine?

i'm tired, i only slept 7 hours (or less) last night. oh yeah, did i tell you? i hate mornings. 8)

everyone say hello to "Nette". she was the first blog i had a repeat appearance at, but then i stopped going. she just left a comment recently out of the blue. that was very nice of her.

i'm definately changing this music soon, so you don't have to suffer for too much longer.

everyone have a good day.

woke up this morning feeling worse than yesterday, but now i'm pretty good. had a very interesting day.

watched the final episodes of a series i have (only 10min each) it was really really sad. it's called Rizelmine (my darling Rizel), it's about this junior-high boy who's been given a "special" wife by the government. he never accepts this and treats her horribly through the entire series because he likes older women (specifically his teacher), but rizel had an accident and remains in her 12 year old body, and also seems pretty stupid. at the end of the first series (12 eps.) he begins to treat her...... not as harsh. towards the middle of the second season, they go through weird circumstances and end up divorcing each other, at which Rizel wants her "Papas" to erase her memory of her husband. (she's a robot, sort of, and her "parents" are her "creators", 3 "Papas, 3 "Mamas"). this whole event makes her real sad, then she realizes (based upon observation of her husband from the "Papas") that he might still like her. she goes to him and he embraces her. he tells her that he loves her and they'll get properly married when the time comes. a "tear jerker" in anime form. but this ending made me real sad, cause i don't have that "someone". i wish the best for you: CC, RaspRoc, D. i wish i had it too.

moving on....... just got back from a great speech from this POW. Colonel Hubbard. he's doing "motivational" (sort of) speeches for this one company, and my mother knows a guy who works there, so we got invited. great speech. if you know me well enough, you know i don't care much for "a good thing", make me sick, blah! but this was pretty good. i'll get the correct information about him and his book, and recomend you read it, or better yet, hear him.

haven't gotten any feed back on my school work. if i don't get any then i just won't bother you people with it.

haven't gotten MUCH response on my "fun" blog (see two below). no answers to the abbreviation quiz?? come on, give me something. ok, whatever.

i just want to say, i'm really thankful to have all you actually read my blog. i've been going through a lot recenty, and said some pretty weird stuff, but you guys have stuck through it. thanks, it means a lot.

goodnight.

oh yeah, i took a test yesterday. it said i was "Yoda". "Wise boyond my years". hmm, sounds familiar, but i just wish i could harness this ability, cause it seems to come and go as it pleases. :roll:

if you were here earlier today, i changed the song, and deleted the blog with the lyrics to it. it was a great song, maybe i'll put it back someday. for now i want to use this one. gotta love them eighties music. this song was originally written by Oingo Boingo for the movie of the same name: "Weird Science". the lead singer of this band is none other than Danny Elfman. if you don't know who he is, he's now composing music for many big films including: edward scissorhand, batman, sleepy hollow, spiderman, the planet of the apes, the hulk, and many many others.

i am feeling fantastic. i think 99% of the sickness is gone. it's so great to feel great. to be part of the living world. hopefully i'll be 110% tomorrow.

i got a lot of work done on my project. that is to say, when i wan't fiddling with stuff. but i added a few things to my list of what i've learned and now i have some more stuff to show you guys. i'll try hard to get a page up soon, to let you see. i've only been going through the beginning modeling tutorials, which is not my specialty, so hopefully i'll pick up pace. but like i said it's BEGINNING tutorial, and NOT MY SPECIALTY, so don't expect much.

finished my four spider-man collection books, that was nice. now i have to see if i can get the set before and after. also i can start on my other books: street fighter, and shaman king (anime). for you technical junkies, it's MANGA. manga is the comic (written) form of anime.

out of the blue, i got a catalog from this online anime store. i have no idea why they sent it to me or how they determined i needed one. anywho, they got some pretty cool tees including a few that have japanese writing, but they have given the translations for each, but keep in mind these tees are for AMERICANS.
-- dirty american devil, japanese manners, looking for a japanese girlfriend, respect the emperor, sorry to cause inconvenience, stupid foreigner

tonight.......... small group at church, and who should be there? yup, HER!! it's absolutely ridiculous that i should have to change the way i am and walk on eggshells around her just cause i don't want to OFFEND her or her father. please!!!! i never did anything, have no intention to, and yet i'm still persecuted for it. utter CRAP!!! well, at least i can summorize the situation into words now, before i couldn't even figure out what the heck was wrong with me.......... oh yeah, IT WASN'T ME!!!! i guess i'm just a dirty american devil. :) at least my cat loves me unconditionally...... almost.

i think that's enough for now, i'll be back tomorrow....... no promises. :)

oh yeah, what do y'all think of the previous post?

I got this off another blog. i don't remember where.


"Hello, and welcome to the mental health hotline......
"If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.
If you are codependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.
If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5, and 6.
If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want. Stay on the line so we can trace your call.
If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mother ship.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a small voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are a manic-depressive, it doesn't matter which number you press, no one will answer.
If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.
If you have a nervous disorder, please fidget with the pound key until a representative comes on the line.
If you have amnesia, press 8 and state your name, address, telephone number,and mother's maiden name.
If you have post-traumatic stress disorder, s-l-o-w-l-y & c-a-r-e-f-u-l-l-y press 0 0 0.
If you have bi-polar disorder, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.
If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.
If you have low self-esteem, please hang up. All operators are too busy to talk to you.
If you are menopausal, hang up, turn on the fan, lay down & cry. You won't be crazy forever.
If you are blonde don't press any buttons, you'll just mess it up.



also got this from another blog. there could be multiple answers, but try to find the ORIGINAL abbreviation.

1 ) A.D. / B.C
2 ) AKA
3 ) GOP
4 ) A.M. / F.M.
5 ) CD
6 ) ERA
7 ) a.m. / p.m.
8 ) IQ
9 ) PS
10 ) RIP
11 ) RSVP
12 ) UFO
13 ) ASAP
14 ) SOS
15 ) ID
16 ) AC
17 ) SCUBA
18 ) ETA
19 ) ETC
20 ) MISC
21 ) AWOL
22 ) TNT
23 ) COD
24 ) ESP

so my friend Trin goes off and tells all her "nicknames", ha beat this. no seriously they're all true, if you don't believe me ask i'll give you the whole scoop.

*ok, i have to skip a few for identification purposes, but just know there's several more, including the spanish and "female" version of my real name*

Paul (yup, not even close), Jafo, Dr. Boo (or boo for short), Mr Grimm, pumpkin (dear old mom), bud (dear old dad), shorty, bean pole, long legs, big galloot, SPAZ (fourth grade teacher!! all year!!), sweety (have to beat them girls off with a ten foot stick) :), hey hot stuff (have to beat them guys off with a ten foot stick) :(, nerd, geek, loser, idiot, dumb*** (gotta love them friends, right D?), grengo (Target, over-night stocker), "little puppet", "your mom squared" (this one confuses me too, but the girl drew a diagram to prove it to me), freak, silly angel....

the list goes on but i forgot most of them.

::edit - after thought:: this blog is kind of big, but it's pretty slim on content, just me talking like i am now. this is your only warning, so read on

so the world goes round. i'm here again. that means i'm feeling a LITTLE bit better. now i got some weird problem with my ear. anywho, i'd like to appologize to everyone........in the world, cause lately i've been upset, and full of negetive energy. i've noticed a lot of people all over who've had bad times this week. it's contagious so watch out. sickness is also spreading around, so be careful of that too.

i need to get back into the real world. this sickness has got me all in a daze. i got out today, and ended up at a few places and i didn't remember why i was there, or what i was looking for. for a little while today i was doing absolutely great, i thought i might be able to get over this by tomorrow morning, but it doesn't look that promising now.

moving on....... that "anime file" i was going to post here has been scrapped. i pretty much had it all done, but i couldn't tell if the volume or sound was right cause my speakers broke and i haven't been able to get them fixed yet, so i'm listening to everything through crappy no-name non-amplified speaker or through my headphones. then after all that i decided no one would care cause it's all in japanese, which i would have posted the translation but i don't think anyone wanted to read it, and it's just not the same without the visuals, which no one would care since none of you have seen the anime's which they came from. so there's the reason if you wanted to know.

moving on....... the schoolwork web site is not progressing cause i haven't bought the software and cause i've been lazy and sick and haven't done any work for about 2 weeks. after i get off my lazy bum, i might actually have a site up soon thereafter.

i'm glad you all enjoyed it. i thought it was about time for me to share with you the wonderful acronym that is: J.A.F.O.. i've been using it for many years and you can all thank my great friend D from seatle for giving it to me way back in junior high. thanks D.

good night y'all.

so i'm back at it, just like always. try to be inquizitive or funny and what ends up happening? i piss a bunch of people off. CeeCeeSun, Trin, I'm sorry. chalk it up to stupidity, lack of social skills, ME. whatever. if you know me at all, you know to expect times like these, and hopefully have learned to forgive and forget.

what the heck's wrong with me? why does this happen to every person i come into contact with? seriously ever since i was 5 i've pissed all my friends off for no purpose and without realizing it. do i just choose people that will eventually head-butt with me? or is it all me? do i eventualy just bring this mean spirit out in everyone that i meet?

oh yeah, i was supposed to go to bed, but it's after 12 and i'm still up. :roll:

oh yeah, this blog was originally supposed to be to thank CC for her helping me out with the LINK thingy. now all the links to the left will open in new windows. pretty easy, just needed to ask, right? and it's pretty cool that you could use that "target" code before OR after the "href".

welp, goodnight, again. 8)

ps. in case my friend get's HERE before i post another blog. yes i changed j.a.f.o. but of course would you expect me to keep it all these years if it was it's original meaning? ---- to everyone else. my friend in seattle (the one having the baby) originally gave me the title "JAFO" many years ago. it orginally meant: Just Another F****** Observer. great trivia huh?

you thought you could get rid of me that easy? just stop commenting or sending me mail for a few days. HA! you make me laugh. hahaha. i'm still here and now i have a blog for you, SO THERE!!! :P

k, so i've been gone for a while. sorry. i started work last week, then i procrastinated on my time off, then i worked again, and now (and the last few days i worked) i've been sick. got some really nasty snot or something. just won't seem to go away. like a bad cold or something.

today: i woke up late and feeling really bad, got up and started watching a couple animes i downloaded a few days ago. my computer froze up on me and after i rebooted it went really really slow. loaded norton systemworks (antivirus, utilities, etc.) and wiped the problem out. finished my vid then started to burn lot of files off my computer, while finishing my big spiderman book that i bought a few years ago, but never finished. eventually my family showed up and kicked me off my computer and so i started playing my new game: Splinter Cell. it's a game from a few years ago with spying and stealth and of course guns. pretty cool. well, now it's 11:00 and i wonder how i am still awake. sicknesses really mess me up, usually i could stay up till 2 pretty easy.

work was pretty busy this weekend. first of the month madness AGAIN!! saturday we had a few small breaks so our young boss got online and started shopping ebay. i asked him to find this pen for me that i lost many years ago, but always wanted another one. well, he found one, that 15 min left in auction, but was at $20. the dodo-head bid on it and won. so he's going to GIVE me this $20 pen (plus shipping). he's crazy, but he's cool with me now. :shock: yesterday however was REALLY busy, and we didn't get a break at all. what a bummer. oh well, that's how WORK is, ain't it. oh yeah, almost forgot. i saw an old high school friend of mine. i haven't seen her since before graduation. she's totally different. we only got to talk for about 30 seconds, but she told me she's working on her pre-med degree. maybe that's why she was so different........ you think? i really miss her, she showed me a lot of attention when we were in school. i miss school, were the only real problems were passing and peer pressure. now it's a totaly different story. if you fail, you get fired, and peer pressure has totally different standards and rules for adults. this sucks.

well, my head is telling me it's time to be put on a pillow. i'll try to write more tomorrow if i feel up to it. goodnight.