ok, sorry to Trin for using "that" word. didn't know/hoped no one would be offended by it. i'll refrain from using it in the future. uhm, CC, yeah, sort of, they are pretty promiscuous, but for the most part (as far as i know) they don't wear skimpy. jeans and a tee are really popular around here, besides there is no water anywhere near here for them to dress in "bathing wear". then again i may just be lucky in what i have and haven't seen.

i had a bad day at work. it was inventory day. they had it done by noon, but they started at 6, and the store opened at 9. also today we had many "bad" people come today. the worst part was that "boss" was completely pissed all day, yelling, cursing, throwing things. it was already a stressful day, but if your boss is more negative than any of the customers, then it's just a pretty crappy day.

so with all that said, i need a lot of positive energy for a while. oh yeah, my friend from seatle just emailed me and told me he's having a baby. i'm sorry "world" but there's nothing i can do to stop it now. :shock: wonders never cease. :wink:

i get up early again torrow to go help some lady clean out her attic. i don't mind, but as you know, i hate mornings. it'll make me feel good to do something nice like this for someone i don't know very well. read: more positive energy. i haven't done any "good deeds" in quite a while.

i'm thinking of putting up everclear's "local god" song. if you have any comments on this or other requests let me know.

PS. rasp, the "ebonics lessons" in the previous post was from a video i got online. the "song" i was talking about was the MSI song i have playing to the left. fyi.

so, i changed my music. i just got really tired of that song. this one is only temp. you probably will not like this song. i tried to use MSI, but this is the only one i found of theirs without lots of cursing. dang it, and i love their songs. also i tried to shrink a file for posting, but the most i could post through my yahoo account was 5mb. the original is 27mb, and at 9mb, it was really crappy, so i'll just post the script below. *disclaimer* - i don't usually like using foul language but this was funny. Enjoy!

*WARNING EXPLICIT LANGUAGE*

Ebonics Language Lessons.

::sophisticated voice - normal language::
::ghetto boy - ebonics language::

Lesson #23
Meeting girls:

My, you're a lovely young lady.
- D*mn, you'ze a fine mother f*****.

Let's go for a ride, shall we?
- Hey Baby, let's jump in my low rider and let's rotate these tires.

You are beautiful. I would like to make love to you.
- D*mn, B*tch, You're stupid fly. Let me pull up to your bumber and smack that monkey.

Lesson #24
Greeting old Friends

Hello sir.
- What up, DAWG!?

May i borrow some money?
- Hey let me hold some ends, i'll hit you back on the first my brother.

You don't have it? thanks anyway.
- F*** YOU!!

Lesson #25
Making New Friends

Hello sir.
- What up?

I admire your fashionable running shoes.
- Drop them nikes off your a**, before i blast you mother f*****.


The end. I thought this was especially funny cause it was put to clips of anime. it may lose some translation without it. sorry, i couldn't help it.

this is the continuation of the previous blog. if you wish to stay current with my blog, read the previous post first. if you just came here looking for "content" check out the links to the left, cause it aint here.

topic #3 - my blankey. i can't live without my blanket. when i moved to dallas, i took my nice queen sized bed, but soon after i got a futon. the entire 3 years i was there i slept on my bed maybe 4 times. that futon and my blanket were all i needed. now that i'm back home and have to sleep in a bed, while my futon is in storage, i've been sleeping ON TOP of my bed with just my blanket. i'm so weird. :roll:

topic #4 - my school work. most of you know that i went to school, didn't finish, and now am back home and trying to go back and finish. i am trying to finish as much as possible before i go back, however, after finally getting the program i needed i realized i was massively understudy. i forgot nearly everything about the program and how to use it. so i have been going through the tutorials to get a good basic knowledge that i never got in school, and to refresh my skill. i'm going a lot slower than i really wish, but will try to create a page with some of that content fairly soon, and post the link to the left. thanks to everyone with their support.

topic #5 - anime music clip. yes, after reading the above you probably realize why i'm not going as fast as i probably should. anyways, i've found a couple great clips in some anime i watched recently and i want to try to put then online somewhere, sometime, and with the lyrics too.

topic #6 - have mom call mrs. .............. oh wait, that's not part of my notes. :shock:

leave comments if you really want to. i'll try to post more tomorrow, cause i'm off tomorrow, oh yeah!! i broke my promise last time, so i'm not promising anything this time. i'm only saying i'm going to try.

goodnight yall. sleep good.

i got caught. i posted a comment last night, but no blog. i thought i could get away with it, but dang it Trin, you're just too crafty. 8) it was about 1:30 last night, so i was tired and didn't want to post. well you have it now, so lets get started...

i can't do anything without notes. the other day after i finished my last blog i started taking notes of subjects i could write about. i can't even remember a person's name without writing it down to remember later. my memory really sucks.

first topic listed on my notes: HOTTIES :!::!:. i live in a college town. it was actually polled by some big magizine (i think) who said this town/college has the largest amount (or per capita, i can't remember) of hot females in the nation. oh yeah! but sadly most are very slutty and/or snobbish. either way it's hard being here for a sad lonely boy. :( whatever, i don't go for those types of girls anyways. i need a real woman, ain't that right ladies?

MOVING ON.......next topic: MUSIC. i was late for work the other day and i ran out the door without my car stereo. aaaagggghhh. i was ready to go drive off a cliff. lucky for me there are no cliff, or hills in this town. i can not stand not having music. music is the number one thing that clams me down when i'm stressed. and work was somewhat stressful that day.

yup, it's 12.30 and i'm tired. i got lots to write about, but you'll have to wait till tomorrow night. don't you love suspence. night y'all.

p.s. i WANTED to use the return function. i like seperating things by paragraphs. stupid comment boxes. :D

thanks CC for your (return) comments. just like you, well like everyone else, we all need a lot of encouragement. like i said, sorry i haven't been to your site in a while. i pretty much quite using the internet for a little bit, but i'm better now. thanks for being a friend. and yes, yes i am wise beyond my years, sometimes, but never on purpose, always on accident. :shock:

my friend trin got her blog jiffied up and getting along, now she's got my friend BACK onto his blog. he was busy and didn't have the desire to mess with it. it was too much of a hassle for him. hope Trin can keep him on longer now.

well it's late and i got to get to bed. I have to get up early for work tomorrow. 10 o'clock. yes, CC, it's not fair, i'm sorry. i'll give you some content tomorrow night.

good night all.

yeah ceeceesun replied to me again. i'm so happy now. and she said my blog wasn't as ugly as i thought. how nice. :D well what should i talk about now?

today i got a call from a friend of mine. i'm cordially invited to a surprise birthday party for the girl whose family hates me. how nice. :? ........you know now that i think about it. maybe i'm just being selfish. maybe she really does want me there and the only reason for me not to be there is my own petty feelings. now i'm upset with myself.

oh yes, by the way, ceeceesun. you may be a nicer person that i but i think i whine a lot. sometimes people just need to be told to shut up. :idea: (nicely) especially me. i don't get told to shutup as much as i used to, then again, back then i beat up those that told me that. i was an emotional child, i sort of still am, just different. i think if you saw what i feel like, i look like "Vash the Stampede" from the "Trigun" anime, all tattered and battle scared. oh well, "you must keep moving forward", he always says. "LOVE AND PEACE" :wink:

what else? oh yes, my parents decided to rearrange the house, again. i wish they'd get what they want, arrange it once and leave it, and not switch and swap things out so much. it's exauhsting. (right ceecee?)

i think now is the time to make amends. i've mentioned ceeceesun, the past few blogs, and in a few previous ones, but i haven't made much mention to my great friend Trinity7KE. I'm sorry trin. right after i get done with this blog i'm going to put a link up for you too. i just heard from CC, that she's gotten a few hits to her blog from people who've been here. maybe you can start getting some more hits too now. i guess that people just pass over me. apart from CC, and Trin, i've only gotten comments from 6 other people since i've started this page over 2 months ago. uh, i guess with this in mind (and with other reasons that i won't ramble on about) i would suggest not worring about linking to my blog, CC. I'm happy the way it is, and i won't leave yet. i can take much more punishment than this. call me "The Punisher". haha, just kidding. (read two blogs down for my review)

ps i'm about to change the music again. i am now taking requests. i was thinking about playing "bjork" but who knows, i might play "mindless self indulgence". if you don't comment, you can't gripe about what i play.

goodnight all.

welp, i guess this post if for ceeceesun, since she's the only one i know who's been to my blog in the last month. like i said before, it's pretty much dead. but i'm stubborn like my parent's so it's not dead till i give up, and frankly it's really not much to do this. it's just a few minutes of dedication, but i rarely have anything to write anymore.

thanks for your encouragement ladies. trinity, ceeceesun. i know i'll find a girl eventually, but it's so hard to wait. i've been lonely for a long time. hehe, the romantic situations in the animes i watch don't help either.

i need to get some frustrastion out. go beat up some teenagers or something. i haven't been able to exert myself lately cause of my freakin sickness (i don't know what it is, and it lingers), but after i wear myself out i should start feeling better. physically, and about myself, everything.

if you have any comments on my page layout, let me know. especially ceeceesun, since i know you deal with computer,web,design......stuff. (sorry, i try to pay attention, but i just have really bad memory. *see sundays comics "archie" for reference) i haven't viewed my page from any other computer so i have no idea how bad it looks.

thanks a lot guys, i'll think of more stuff to ramble out for tomorrow. have a good night.

ps. i didnt' make myself clear before. they were ex-girlfriends, altough none were ever "official", so basically they were all just "friends".

hmm-hmm. fun fun. i'll try to be quick. not a whole lot of activies last weekend. i was sick until wednesday, even though i still had to work monday. i got out once tuesday, then again thursday. yesterday morning (friday)was my big day out of the house.

i was actually feeling really good (health-wise), i had money and i was planning on buying something. i did some searching the night before and got really really excited. first stop was the 'bad' anime shop. just to see if he had a box set that i've been looking for now for a while. not only did he have one, it was used and in PERFECT condition. i was soooo happy. 8) i also found a Ruri figure which i've been wanting for a while but couldn't ever find it. i got it and the vids much cheaper than if i bought just the vids brand new. sweet. :twisted:

next stop, used record store to sell a crappy movie set i bought on sell thinking it was anime. it wasn't anime, it was 80's chinese sci-fi horror movie trilogy. LAME!! i just wanted money back but decided to take a quick look at what they had in stock, even though i was running late for work. what did i find? oh yeah, another very good condition box set. even cheaper than the first (though not in excellent conidition, but still good, and it's retailed priced higher than the first set) and with the trade in i practically ripped then them off. even if one disc, which just looks dusty, isn't good, i could just buy the single disc to replace it.

oooh yeah i was having a good day. i had to work that night (last night) but i was still so happy........ then as i was leaving i saw my "ex"'s father. arg, what a way to ruin a day. so when i got home i called my friends and went to the movies with them. we saw "The Punisher". Awesome movie. recommened for comic fans only, all others, well, just wait for rental. *note: there was one really bried nude shot.* also saw the new trailer for spider-man 2. AAWWW YEAH!!! the first trailer was a little lame looking, not much better than the first movie, but this trailer was freakin awesome. i'm really really looking forward to seeing it now. x-men 3 should come out pretty soon too.

comic book movies are getting much much better. but remember they started out reall really bad. they still have some really corny parts/lines, but they're much fewer of them.


this page is really dying. leave comments please. give me a subjet to talk about, suggestions for fixing this page, anything.

thanx. jafo.

got this from ceeceesun, who got it.........etc.etc.


1: Grab a book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:

i see no books, this is not my desk, there's bunches of notes mostly with email addresses

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:

i can't reach anything to my left, but there's a book shelf on the desk with no book on it just past my reach

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:

don't remember, don't care

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:

2:26 AM

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:

2:34AM dang i need to get to bed

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:

utter silence, everyones asleep including the animals. all i hear my own typing and computer fan.

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?:

many hours ago after i got off work. i was coming home, duh!! :)

8: before you came to this website, what did you look at?:

i got this from ceeceesun's blog, before that i was looking at my own sad blog page, and a bit torrent hosting site. i love me some anime. :)

9: what are you wearing?:

pj's and a tee.....and socks, it's cold

10: Did you dream last night?:

of course, but i don't remember

11: George Bush:

it's a freakin war people, get over it. he didn't start it, iraq/taliban did. he understands if a terrorist is not stopped they will kill again. very simple. i don't like politics so leave me alone.

12: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:

my little "imagination" :) i like the names: amy, sakura, ritsuko, mimarin, i'm being silly cause it's late and i don't care at this point in my life.

13: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:

ed, kamihamaru, naota, lane

14: Would you ever consider living abroad?:

oh yes. japan here i come.

i feel much better today. i had to work 12-9, on the day after holiday, a monday, and still short staffed. i was nervous all morning. got to work and had to take a pepcid and meclizine. boss-man was there, didn't throw anything and rarely raised his voice. i'm so proud of him. :roll: the big baby needs to control his temper. at the end of the day, i still don't feel great, but i'm much better.

f.y.i. - other day, beligerent customer needs service, immediately. we are swamped but realize his necessity. boss trying to be nice and sympathetic was willing to bend laws (quite normal for industry, but of 'boss's' discretion). boss tells the man the situation but man starts to yell, points finger, curses numerous times, says disrespectful things to boss and company, then finally leaves without the boss's generous gift.

continued - again today. wife of man who is in need calls to blame 'boss' for not taking care of her husband's needs. she says he is to blame if husband dies and proceeds to yell and be beligerent.

where do idiots come from? are they produced in this town? there is an overwhelming supply here. it is not my boss's job to take care, babysit and mother our customers. if a customer cannot be responsible for their own safety, health and finances it does not fall into the responsibility of my boss, our store, or even industry. leave us alone and quite blaming others for your mistakes or shortcomings.

how yesterday was supposed to go:

wake up, get dressed
go to church, hear great sermon
come home, have big lunch with invited friends
play games after lunch
relax, sleep, and watch tv
go out and play ball
bowl with large group of friends
come home late, go to bed

how day really went:

stay in bed all day, drink juice and pepto.
listen to friends have fun in living room from bed
sleep and mentally block all possible pain

happy easter.

this is a rant. a rant about girls who don't go for the "nice" guy. took a lot of courage to write this, but if you have any comments good or bad, feel free.

girl #1) name: casidi; time: high school sophmore; about: 3in taller than me (tall!!), cute, not straight teeth, psychotic; type of relationship: used me as figure piece for friends who called her bad names (i didn't figure this out soon enough); breaking point: "i got really drunk and slept with a guy last night"; quits: never called or returned phone calls, became distant, and quit school.

girl #2) name: naomi; time: high school junior - college yr 1; about: short, blonde, ballerina, "christian" family, cute, went to school at WT in canyon,tx, father left family for widdowed mother of her best friend (while i saw her), likes to drink and go to parties (but supposedly doesn't get drunk, and guys who aren't queer ballerinas don't hit on her), not "officially dating"; breaking point: at valentines day and spring break remained very distant and quite; quits: one week after last trip and numerous unanswered phone calls, she says: "i just don't feel like i used to... i don't even want to be friends, and i will not change my mind in the future. click."

girl #3) name:; time: recent; about: old friend (not from school), burnette, cute, charming and outgoing, smart, very "Christian" (i like), writer; breaking point: father calls to tell me to stay away from daughter, i explain i once WAS interested but gave up cause it wouldn't work, her and family become inhospitable (including youngest brother who i tried to role model for); quits: despite my best efforts to aleviate tension and set paths straight i am given cold shoulder. i quit.

there were couple others but not worth mentioning. even still i have not "officially" had a girlfriend, yet.

why is it girls say they want the "nice" guy, but always take "bad" guys and leave the "good" ones? why can't they handle a "good" thing?

sorry it's been so long. but it was busy, and now i have a lot to write about. (i'll try not to ramble too much)

got my blasted program up and running. yes, it works finally, and thankfully. my old 5.0 files open up in 6.0. i haven't had any problems yet, but i'm walking on eggshells. dang, i'm pretty rusty. it's been over a year since i've worked with this program. i'll have the hit the tutorials HARD.

spent more time with friends. saw Hellboy with one group thursday at 10:30 (sheesh i'm crazy) and felt so sorry that i kept my friends from their beds for such an unworthy movie. it had some decent parts and great animation, but not worth $8. see it, but wait for the $1 theaters to pick it up. seriously.

earlier this morning, me and my two closest friends, saw Dawn of the Dead. cool movie. pretty well done, not overly lame, but had a couple explisit shots. it progressed the story pretty fast and had a few nice twists to keep things interesting, unlike most b-rated "milk the genre" movies. this movie works perfectly parallel to the Resident Evil series/movies, but is no way connected, and may be an even better movie. all one's own opinion. can't wait to see the next RE. i love overbugetted, cheesy, sci-fi movies like this. (i.e. Fifth Element) - leave comments please.

work - - boss has got to learn to control his temper. he's scaring the other staff, and even has the store manager kissing up to keep him from walking out (yes, the one who cut hours dramatically and made life miserable for us and especially "boss"). jerry the manager even sent extra help immediately without asking "boss" just to cool him down. jerry even checked up on "boss" every hour the past few days...."is everything all right. do you need some help?", even answered the phone which "boss" refused to pick up (even with the manager standing right there). "boss" was lit the entire weekend, but today was much much calmer, and tomorrow he gets a day off and gets to go back home to spend some time with his wife. (he's from far out of town, works 7on/7off) he was in a bit of a better mood today.

got home tonight, dad's storming the house, fumes coming from his head, and extremely silent. very carefully i ask what's wrong. "all this fuss, and having to straighten up just for some stupid lunch tomorrow". we are having guests, and mother cleaned house and made mondo preperation for a large lunch tomorrow. i'm a bit uneasy about it too, but for personal reasons regarding the company tomorrow. dad needs to lighten up, he's would kick himself and yell at the rest of us if by tomorrow they show up and the house was a mess. sheesh he's weird sometimes. i wonder if something else has him miffed??

have been planning on inviting a few people to visit my site. i need to clean up a bit. any suggestions? how's the left side look? no, seriously.

planning on making southpark characters (like mine on the left) of the whole staff at work. if anyone else wants one of them, try the link or let me know and i'll have a go.

y'all have a great easter.

another "man-tastic" day (quote from incubus lead-singer)

did some more shopping. ye-ah. got the matrix revolutions, of course, and a couple manga that i had on order. don't forget "Pocky". mmm, so good. pretty much the whole day it's been raining, oh so nice. got a little hail with it too, but it was tiny. night isn't over, so i plan on starting a vid, or even going to rent one. speaking of:

*** Has anyone seen Hellboy, Dawn of the Dead, Hidalgo, or Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind --- Leave comments please. ***

[LINE]current music genre: techno - bands: fatboyslim, prodigy, crystal method, chemical brothers, daft punk
don't have a lot of albums of instumental techno, will either have to find something online, or move to different genre, probably electronic/dance/soundtra cks.

if you are working or are going to work, don't take melizine or dimenhydranate unless your boss allows a little nap time. :wink: i was so crashed today, haha.

i couldn't log onto tblog last night and i got really scared. i thought i might lose all my blogs and information and tbucks, etc. etc. i didn't know what to do....... then it came to me. if i was to lose all my blogs and have to start from scratch i'd write something like this:

"what the heck!!!!! where's all my stuff. all the words and sentences and blogs i poured all my heart and soul into....... revealing to the world my inner most secrets and shortcomings. how everyone knew how much of a loser and dope i was. all the comments of people making terrible fun at me and i couldn't do anything about it but cry. curling up into a fetal position with my stuffed moose and crying myself to sleep everynight cause i was so ashamed how everyone knew how horribly stupid and lame i was............... ALL GONE!!!! IT'S ALL GONE!!!! ::boohoohoo:: ::whaaaaaaa:: ::whaaaaaaa::"

:twisted: - heh, this was fun.

time to change the music.............. any suggestions??

great week so far. weekend is puttering out though. it's just cause i haven't been to work all week, and i had to go today and of course it was busy. surprise surprise. :roll: (cause it's the first of the month) anyways, yesterday got to spend some time with my friends for the first time in...........a while, maybe 3 weeks. went and got some coffee. awww, that was soo good. but stupid me had to pick starbucks, and my friends couldn't afford the coffee, and starbucks doesn't have any sodas......... what a load of garbage. (*edited for nette, if she even sees this*) but earlier this week, i got to go get some anime. WOOHOO!!!! yeah, i'm happy now. i love me some anime. :D

actually the highlight of my week was probably that i got my computer up and running again, with 3D MAX. this is what i've been trying to do (should have been doing) for the past (?) 6 months. i've just run into nearly every problem imaginable. main problems were: money (had to buy the program ($500) and a new computer cause my old one fried, and windows XP cause 3D MAX wont run on anything else :::ARRRGGGG::: XP SUCKS!!!!!), and time (was working a lot before they cut hours). i thought there were more, but i guess not, unless you count laziness and procrastination. :shock:

you have fun party people.