as you can probably see, i don't have too many spectacular days. a couple days ago, after that hatefilled day at work, i had a most wonderful day. --- i found an awesome bit torrent. (SHADOW'S experimental) i'm still having problems with blue screening and reboots, but not nearly as much and the files d/l 100 time faster. i also learned about ports, port numbers, port forwarding, routers and firewalls, and more. (i told you i knew nothing about networks/internet/anythin g) also got a lot of learning done for work too, for which i'm supposed to be "in-training". got a decent session in with my "learning japanese" book. at the end of the day i got to visit my anime store and pick out a couple goodies.

"It was a good day." - repeat till all is disolved :wink:

see previous post---
this song started on my cd player on my way home. perfect timing.

Incubus - The Warmth:
I'd like to close my eyes, go numb
But there's a cold wind coming from
The top of the highest high-rise today
It's not a breeze 'cause it blows hard
It says it wants me to discard the humanity I know
Watch the warmth blow away.

Don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that ****** up and cold
Remember why you came and while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old.

So do you think I should adhere to that pressing new frontier?
And leave in my wake a trail of fear?
Or should I hold my head up high
And throw a wrench and spokes by
Leaving the air behind me clear?

Don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that ****** up and cold
Remember why you came and while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old.

Before you grow old.
Where did it go?

absolutely, wonderfully, terifically bad bad day.
a day pretty normal on my levels, but when you ask your boss for confirmation of instructions (which is manditory in my field) and he snaps at you for being hacked off by someone else, your day is pretty much ruined for the rest of the night. an appology would relieve all, but this is not to be had today.

gonna drink flat sodas, close myself off, and play games all night. i'll see you in the morning.

went to lunch today with a bunch of my friends. talked, argued, just hung out like good old times. i really miss those times. you should cherish the good times, you never know when all you have left is memories.

i'm happy now. i'm going to play some video games. :wink:

oh yes, forgot to mention, i found an amazing bit torrent program. a thousand times better than my old piece of junk program. there's still problems of randomly disconnecting from the internet and instantanious reboots. perhaps there's just a conflict of interest with my computer and bit torrent in general. either way, still way better than kazaa.

if you read this, send me a message. i'm on the lookout for some more friends. my current supply is pretty low, and my online support is no longer exsistant. (long story)

it's late tonight, and i'm really tired.....thinking too much about the past....month.....or more, with no messages, emails, or phone calls can really get to you. your mind wonders and you start to think too much. you can only think of your ex who last year broke up with you after valentines. "things just aren't the same anymore. i don't like you like i used to. i don't even want to be your friend, so don't ever call me after this. goodbye". seriously.

i've said enough for tonight. too much. so goodnight my friends.

a pretty aweful way to spend a beautiful day.

woke up........got woken up at.......early, went out of town to get some stupid furniture, had to be back before work, barely made it but missed a shower and cleaning a decent set of clothes. ended up at work tired, frustrated, stressed, smelly, and looking aweful. :cry:
out of the whole day, this blog is the only thing i've had time to do for myself. .........and i had my whole day planned with lots of projects that needed doing, including studying.

.......at work, it wasn't bad, nice and slow.........dead. awesome, love it. but the "boss" had other plans. "great, it's dead we get to reorganize the entire store. you and me, pal" :( great another perfectly good day wasted yet again. life is so wonderful to me sometimes.

if you want to know more about Final Fantasy: Crystal Chronicles go to the official website:

ffcc.nintendo.com

if you have any questions about the game or any thing else let me know.

other topics of interest:
all things Nintendo
all things Anime
philosophy
religion

today i got to play some multi-player action of Final Fantasy: Crystal Chronicles. it was really cool. but now my friend is gone and i'm all alone again. i had a friend on tblog a couple days ago, now she just disappeared. her profile is gone, she's no longer in my friend list and her blog is just completely missing.

.........crap!! my computer messing up again with that stupid bit torrent stuff.

just found out about "bit torrent" about a week ago, k. was pumped that i could get [b]BRAND NEW[/b] anime episodes straight from the fansubbers themselves. so i went downloaded the program...........

........well, now i'm getting all sort of weird messages every few minutes and a "blue screen" after about 10. this notifies me that my internet connection is no longer working, so i have to restart my computer just to restart the download or whatever else i was working with online.

if anyone has or knows of bit torrent that works properly and has a link for it PLEASE let me know. thanxs.

been think about this "blog" stuff. it's pretty much just an online journal. so why is it alright for guys to do it? i mean, if a guy have a hand-written "diary" people would call him gay, right? so, has our society finally evolved beyond petty ridicule? i think not. i have no answers to give. if you have any comments let me know.

memories.... thats why anyone (girls or boys) keep journals. we must remember our past good or bad because without our past we are nothing, just an empty shell. your past is why you are the way you are now.

traces of this theme are in: Evangelion, Ghost in the Shell, and the amazing new game: Final Fantasy: Crystal Chronicles. FFCC's plot is heavily driven by the memories of supporting characters, and the things that they have forgotten through some unseen "force".
........i'll write more about this once i've beaten the game.

Incubus - "A Certain Shade of Green"

A certain shade of green,
tell me, is that what you need?
All signs around say move ahead.
Could someone please explain to me your ever present
lack of speed?
Are your muscles bound by ropes?
Or do crutches cloud your day?
My sources say the road is clear,
and street signs point the way.
Are you gonna stand around till 2012 A.D.?
What are you waiting for,
A certain shade of green?
I think I grew a gray watching you procrastinate.
What are you waiting for,
A certain shade of green?
Would a written invitation
signed, "Choose now or lose it all,"
sedate your hesitation?
Or inflame and make you stall?
You've been raised in limitation,
but that glove never fit quite right.
The time has passed for hand-me-downs,
choose anew, please evolve,
take flight
What are you waiting for?
A written invitation?
A public declaration?
A private consolation?[LINE]"...too bad the things that make you mad are my favorite things" - Incubus

don't know when, but i learned that city hall has unknowingly made me chief of customer service and complaints for the entire town. i just don't know how people could survive in this town without little ol' me to fix each and every little problem they have. some "funny" ones have even asked me to come fix their toilet. NO!! I do not want to spend one more second with you IDIOTS!!

..... The real problem with idiots is that they don't know they are idiots, thus they don't know to fix themselves. so the question for you people reading this is: how stupid are [b]you[/b]? :shock:

--- the next time you are in some retail store or have any problem, think about this: does the person you are asking have any knowledge of.... anything, or even has the ability or authority to help you. if not, then try to figure it out yourself, or ask someone more specific like a designated department attendant or customer service, or even a freakin manager.[LINE]too many projects to be done at the house: fixing computer, clearing rooms, eating, sleeping, studying......etc. etc. at the end of a hard day listening and fixing other peoples problems i never want to fix my own.[LINE]***
pain and loneliness are made of the same substance
they live and thrive upon each other
together in perfect matramony
neiter can be overcome by sheer will alone.
***[LINE]
goodnight, sweet dreams, and may God's blessings abide upon you.

sometimes it's just way too hard to get out of bed.

yesterday rented some videos - Lost in Translation, and The Last Minute.
[LINE]***Summary***
Lost in Translation - Bill Murray stars as an older gentleman who's in a midlife crisis, "Charolette" is a newly-web stuck in a rut. Both are alone in crazy Tokyo, bored, and sleepless. Through each other they come full circle and find themselves again.

The Last Minute - A chappy English fellow has a brilliant idea to make lots of money off of some "crappy" artwork. He crashes and burns, lives in the sewers, pickpockets, and at the last minute escapes to a better life in Greenland.

***Jafo's Review***
Lost in Translation - a good movie, but has a short nude scene.
The Last Minute - not all that great, was way too long for just a short sweet story. ......also has too many bizarre cut-scenes.

....without knowing html coding, personalizing my blog page is a piece of crap. at least its better than it was, but there still a bit more i need to do. whatever, spent about 1-1/2 just to get this far, i'm done messing with it today.........on to bloggin.

man, this looks like crap. ....will fix in the morning.

...goodnight.